You know how sometimes you just feel soooooo sad. And it's like you can feel the sadness in you gut or something and it hurts a shit ton. And you know whose fault it is and you know why you feel this way but don't wanna do anything about it.
Or well maybe you do something about it but I don't.
It's harder if the same goddamn person has been hurting you for 1 and half years without any clue.
It fucking hurts.
Especially when you care,trust,and love them so very much..but they don't don't trust you.
To the extent that they told you to leave the room because they didn't want you to hear it.
To the extent where you find out through someone else about something that they did.
And it was a bad thing.
But you still hug them and tell them it'll be alright and that they're still like a sibling to me and that I still love them.
Only to hear the kind words come out of his mouth telling you leave the room cuz he didn't want you to hear what had happened ,a few days later.
Thank you. Both of you. Thank you so much for embedding this pain into me. 1 more than the other...thank you.
Fuck you.
Bye.
