I'm falling and I can't stop. I can't keep on hanging in between life a death. I want to die so badly but there's people telling me not to. Let me make this one decision by myself. My whole life I've been going on with others decisions let me do this one thing on my own so I never have to listen to my mind telling me I'm worthless and that nobody will like me and so I don't have any body else telling me stuff like that either. I stopped self harm. Why because people told me to stop. Did i want to stop? Of course not. I was and am perfectly fine with hurting myself. Its the others that i didn't like. I hate hurting others. Someone told me that it pained them to see doing that to myself. So i stopped. But did i want to. Of course not but i hate hurting others. Now I don't think that if i just die anybody would be hurt or be in pain... I'm just a stupid person thinking somebody would care for a piece of shit like me.
Until next time.....if there is one that is....
