This is an old entry so don't worry..
Walking down the school hallways trying to shift the weight of my backpack so thats it not directly on top of my shoulders. They hurt sooo bad. Wincing slightly as the shoulder straps come in contact with my shoulders. IT BURNS. The freshly cut shoulders are sure to leave a mark. Woke up this morning and got ready quickly desperate to leave my house as soon as possible. I made sure to check the back of my phone to see if I still had it. Good. I do. I walked to school, my jeans rubbing on my cut up thighs. Eh who cares. I don't. Got to school and went to the library. Sat down and asked to use the bathroom. As soon as i was out... i rushed to the bathroom and locked the stall door behind me. Took out my blade and cut up my shoulders unaware of what might happen if I did it. I was focused on 1 thing and 1 thing only. Cut after cut.
1,2,3,5,8,10,11,12,14,16,20,24,26,28,30
My shoulders were bleeding so much. UGH I'M SO STUPID.
I bandaged them up hopefully it'll stop the bleeding. I went back to the library and looked at the time and saw it was almost time for the bell to ring. I took so much time. Picking up my backpack, I realized that the straps would dig in to my cuts. Yay more pain. The bell rang and i put my backpack on my shoulders. OW that hurts. OUCH. OOF IT HURTS. Ughhhhhh. I'm so stupiddd....
I'll continue on the next chapter. Later though...
Until next time....if there is one that is...
