Maybe it's the fact that when you stop responding I worry about you.
Or when you barely ever answer I get worried about you...cuz I know what goes on in your head.
Or maybe when we are talking you just leave and then never respond.
You leave during the middle of a conversation. Leaving me worried that I said or did something. Even though I know I haven't done or said anything...
Espacially when you've said that I've been nothing but the best to you... I still worry that it was my fault. And is my fault to this day that you don't respond.
Or maybe I'm just a very paranoid person...who always thinks that when you don't respond to a very urgent text from me it's that you don't care or love me anymore.
Ah idk I guess when I'm always there for you...you aren't there for me. When I stop texting you you don't text me to ask if I'm okay even though you know everything that goes on in my life.
Even at school you don't...I really think you don't care for me anymore.
But remember I still do.
Even though I know that you'll never read this...I'm still gonna say it cuz I've been meaning to say this...even If you won't read it.
Idk dude...I guess it hurts a shit ton. Cuz I trusted you and you never did the same...so I stopped telling you shit..and you never like actually asked if I was okay...I sometimes hate you so much...but then I brush it off and bring the blame upon myself. That its something I did.
Put on a fake smile because you wont notice the pain behind it..
So thank you...becuase you are part of the reason why I feel so worthless and unwanted and unloved and uncared for. Thank you so fucking much.
THANKS FOR LISTENING TO THIS RANT. WEEKLY ON TRY..TUNE IN NEXT TIME FOR MORE SHITTY LIFE STORYS. DON'T WORRY IT'S NON FICTION. YOU CAN TELL YOUR ENGLISH TEACHERS THAT YOU READ NON-FICTION.
