I cant stop crying. These tears won't stop. I'm trying to smile and show you I'm okay but I cant seem to do that always. I won't tell you I'm okay or I'm not cuz I don't wanna bother you. I want you happy. I'm worried about you at times because I dont know what to do to make you happy or smile. I love you with everything in me but I fear that I'm not enough. This is my mind and I dont want you feeling bad for what you cant control. But please dont take this the wrong way cuz I swear I'm trying to tell you if somethings wrong I just dont know how to without seeming selfish to myself. I know you love me and think I'm beautiful and I love you too and know you're absolutely stunning but my mind is just a big giant mess of things it wants to confess but I dont let it. I look in the mirror and think if my waist was a bit thinner or my stomach a bit flatter my arms a.bit muscular and my thighs a bit smaller then I'd finally be able to think of myself as okay. There are days where I feel okay about myself and those days are short lived gone in an instant but when I talk to you I dont feel it. I love talking to you cuz it makes the whole world dissapear. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes and I wish I could see myself through your eyes because maybe that's what we need to make ourselves believe were beautiful.
