I sit on my bed looking at the floor trying to shoo away the negative thoughts clouding my mind. Music softly pouring out the speakers of my phone. I know that I'm not the only one feeling like this but i refuse to get any help. I'm sorry if I'm pushing you away. But sometimes it feels like i am the only one. I feel so alone at times that i can't grasp anything at the time.
Sighing in frustration i crawl up in a ball and rest my head on my knees. I start sobbing as everything comes upon me all at once. My pants getting soaked in the process but i don't care. I hate myself so much right now and all i know is that i want to die so bad.
