About 6 weeks ago, my friend was diagnosed with depression, and anxiety. I have always had self confidence problems, and so in my mind, I guess it clicked. I might also be depressed. I researched the signs, and concluded, that I am depressed. I also have anxiety problems. Since then, she has been diagnosed with an eating disorder, and panic disorder.
My names Annabella, I have depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and a self harming problem.
My self harm: about 4 days after I realized I was depressed, I wanted to hurt myself, and I remembered reading about self harm. I decided to give it a try. I started out small, with just tiny scratches that lasted a few hours, (scratched with a loom needle), but after a few days I decided to go full on and the scratches lasted for 3 days. I decided to start scratching with scissors. Again, I started out small with small scissors and small scratches, but by now, I have moved on to full size sharp scissors, scratches that last for a week, and fill up my whole arm.
I do not cut, because I hate blood, and it gives me anxiety. (Haha now I do bishes, I guess I hated myself enough to overcome that anxiety hat came with blood)
I would stop self harming to see if it leaves scars or damages my skin permanently, but I consider self harm an addiction now
For anyone who has depression, research "projects" to help you express your emotions
For everyone who doesn't have depression, this is what happens to teens with depression, who do not feel comfortable talking to adults.
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Depression Journal
RandomA journal of a 13 year old girl who is depressed, has anxiety problems, is suicidal, and self harms. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK Just remember, hate comments or anything that may suggest that I either don't have it too bad, or basically anything negative...
