It's so frustrating because I want to say something depressing as a clue that I need support but I don't want to make my friend feel depressed again so here is a list of stuff I want to say
"I'm just at the point where I would be happy if someone murdered me"
"Kill me"
"I also cuted with knif but it wasn't an accident"
"Help"
"Hey y'all go check me out @depressedpotato23 on Wattpad"
"Do you guys have any knives that you don't want I can just take it off your hands don't ask why I need a knife no one would notice if it disappeared right?"
"Oh yeah I was about to kill myself earlier but I didn't because of you guys thanks for all the support and love you show me" (sarcasm except for the part where I tried to kill myself)
"How are people so extroverted I cant even talk about my feelings to people without self harming"
"Remember what 'lee' said 'can'"
"Anna depression doesn't f***ing work like that remember when I told you I was depressed? Yeah? Well it's almost been 2 months of being depressed and it hasn't gone away. You lived through 1 week of 'depression' and it goes away suddenly when you talk about it? Hmmm seems sketchy to me"
"I'm such a hypocrite because I tell my friends I would be so sad if they died, but I don't believe it when they tell it to me. I tell my friends to get help, but I don't get myself any. I tell my friends to not hurt themselves, but I hurt myself. I tell my friends to not lie about their feelings, but I do. I tell my friends that they can tell me anything, but I don't tell anyone anything."
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Depression Journal
RandomA journal of a 13 year old girl who is depressed, has anxiety problems, is suicidal, and self harms. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK Just remember, hate comments or anything that may suggest that I either don't have it too bad, or basically anything negative...
