A journal of a 13 year old girl who is depressed, has anxiety problems, is suicidal, and self harms.
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Just remember, hate comments or anything that may suggest that I either don't have it too bad, or basically anything negative...
One thing was I was going to an online chat thing the "suicide prevention line" chat and it was so annoying I joined the line, 32 people in front of me. Half an hour later 25 people I front of me. There were 25 people in front of me for 20 minutes. I decided to refresh after about an hour of waiting, because I thought my screen was frozen. I get back on, 74 people in front of me. I quit.
Also I am starting to lose my appetite more. From 9:00 pm to 9:00 am (I slept for about 6 and a half hours) I didn't drink or eat anything, and I wasn't insanely hungry. I went downstairs and ate a cereal bar. I don't remember times but at some other point in the day before 4 I ate another cereal bar (ooh but a different branddd) at 5 we had dinner because daylight savings. I ate Mac and cheese and a coooookie. At 9ish I ate 5/8ths of an apple. It's now 11:42 and I haven't eaten anything since that. I'm hungry but I'm also not hungry, but I also think I'm sick because I constantly feel like I'm going to throw up and I keep coughing all the time. That was basically my whole day.
I just went and checked the suicide chat again
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