A journal of a 13 year old girl who is depressed, has anxiety problems, is suicidal, and self harms.
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Just remember, hate comments or anything that may suggest that I either don't have it too bad, or basically anything negative...
Sorry I haven't updated, I'm in Florida and very busy, also I had to delete the app because of storage so now I have to write this all on the website on my phone, yeah, so continent.
I'm so frusturated because I've opened up to my friends and I've still not gotten any support, but then my other friends are getting support when they are sad. I hate this life, I want to die and get the living part over with. I would commit suicide but I know how much it would hurt my friends and family, and I have other friends that would probably commit suicide if I did, but the urge to die is so great I just want to do it.
I've challenged myself to not self harm for the whole time I'm in Florida, but it's so hard I just want to do it already. I'm probably going to tonight, there's just a pesky bug that is annoying me and it keeps flying around me.
Go follow my instagram I post more often there DepressePotato23
Imma send this photo to my friends tonight when I know they aren't awake
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It's so true
I'm at the most depressing state I have been in, and of course it's when I'm on vacation. My days all seem to go like this:
6:30 am-wake up
7:10 am-force myself to get up and get ready for school
7:45 am-chat with my Aunt and feel less depressed than earlier
9:00 am-school I'm feeling okay
10:29 am-math I usually like it but now it stresses me out too much
11:12 am-Spanish I love it but my friend has started saying things like "I'm going to go home and be depressed" and using mental illnesses as adjectives piss me off so much
11:55 am-lunch this is the happiest point of my day, I just get to hang out with my friends and now worry about teachers
12:39 pm-ugh I have health and I'm feeling depressed again whooo
2:04 pm-humanities I feel depressed to the max in this class because my clinically depressed (also has GAD, anorexia, PTSD, and a few more I'm forgetting) friend is very extroverted and open about her problems and it makes me feel depressed, but I still love her ❤️
3:30 pm-school finally gets out, whoops I'm depressed and about to cry
4:00 pm-5:30 pm-I lay in my bed and look at depressing things until dinner where I sit downstairs and talk to my family for 30 minutes then go upstairs and cry
9:00 pm-I teach my most depressing point of the day, I cut, and just feel very depressed and suicidal
