Bughead : Lost in love

Chpt 30 : Testing it Out Betty's POV

Jughead has given me the name for the therapist he had found. I wasn't really looking forward to going but Jughead was right ; I needed help. Everything else I tried to do didn't help me, if anything it made me physically sick too. I was pondering about what things would be like in my science class. I usually don't pay attention in school after recent events. Recently I've been sitting still and waiting to feel the baby move.

The whole pregnancy thing is exhausting. The baby kicks a lot when I'm sitting still or trying sleep. The littlest things such as walking up the stairs or picking something up something from the floor was no longer easy to do. Whenever I bent down it was really exhausting and going up the stairs had me out of air.

I was sitting in class feeling my baby kick every now and then when the bell finally rang. I walked over to Archie because he was in my science class, and then we both walked out of class. "All this stuff is confusing. I hate science." I heard Archie say. We walked up to stairs and I responded huffing "I don't even pay attention really. I just study it before tests then get an A somehow." We got to the top of the stairs and I took a second to catch my breath again.

     Archie and I kept waking together and he asked, "Why are you so out of breath?" I just kinda laughed and responded saying. "Have you forgotten everything?" I said that while kind of drawing attention to my stomach but I wasn't about to show the whole world I was pregnant. I was probably going to have to say something soon. My baby was getting harder and harder to hide. "Oh right. Physics is making me forget everything because I'm so focused on knowing physics." Archie said chuckling. Just like things were before life went downhill.

     Archie and I walked into the usual hang out room and we sat down on opposite couches. Just as we sat down Jughead and Veronica both came in. They had English together. "Hey B, and Archikens" Veronica said. I smiled over at Veronica and then looked over at jughead. He smilied as he sat next to me and rested his hand on my thigh. We all talked for a while with normal topics until Jughead said, "Betty wanna go to Blue and Gold? I need help with this essay?" I just got up and nodded my head.

     We got outside and I asked sorta out of breath, "Can we go somewhere closer?" He grabbed my hand and sighed. "Betts it's literally like 100 steps away." He replied laughing. "Fine." I said catching my breath. I wasn't that exhausted but pregnancy is tiring. We got into the office and shut the door and jughead said, "Youre aren't even that far along yet stop complaining." We both laughed and I rubbed my bump that was hidden behind a sweatshirt. "Shut up you're not the pregnant one here." I said jokingly.

     I sat down and jughead leaned against a table. "I came to ask to make sure you're ready for therapy today. I just want to make sure." He said looking down. "I think it'll be ok." I said standing up and walking over to him. "Do you want me to go with you or do you want to go out after or anything?" He said fidgeting with his hands. I grabbed his hands and said, "I'll be fine juggie." He moved his hand to my face and pulled me close to him.

Our lips lightly pressed together as we melted into eachother. Our kisses got more intense and he pushed my over onto the wall. He slipped his tongue to meet mine and we were pressed together onto the wall. I wanted to enjoy the moment with him forever. All I could think about was him.

He pulled away and said, "You should probably head to your appointment." I sighed and moved off from the wall as I nodded. "Hey Betty you'll be ok. This is supposed to help you." He said. I nodded my head and started slowly going towards to door. "Hey Betty. You'll be fine don't worry, don't be nervous." He explained moving towards me. I felt like crying but I had to hold it together. I wasn't even that worried, it was probably just hormones.

He pulled me into a hug and rubbed my shoulder. "What if somehow I have to give up the baby if I talk to her about everything?" I said trying not the cry. "Betts I promise I won't let that happen. We can figure this out ok? Just stay strong. If you don't like things after today you don't have to do therapy anymore. I just want you to get help. Betty you have to realize that." He explained. "Ok." I mumbled into his shoulder. I wasn't afraid of therapy I just wanted my baby to stay with me.

I said goodbye to Jughead then Archie and Veronica and went to where I would be having therapy. The appointment went really quick but it was really weird telling a complete stranger a lot about my life. I decided not to tell her I was harassed yet Incase for some reason she made me take legal action which I wasn't ready to do. I wanted to wait until after I had the baby because I was already really  stressed and more stress would be bad for the baby. I also didn't tell her about being pregnant because I didn't feel so comfortable telling her. I only kept things simple. I didn't go into deep stuff yet. I juts wasnt comfortable. It is so much easier talking to Jughead about things. I honestly didn't think therapy would be so helpful.