Bughead : Lost in love

Chpt 76 : Life is Beautiful Betty's POV

Not again I sighed getting out of bed. It was 3:00am and I got a dizzy spell. This has been happening frequently now. I think I'm pregnant but I'm not sure. I still have my period but I keep getting dizzy everyday and I'm throwing up almost every other day. I'm not sure, I hope I'm pregnant but I just don't think I'd have my period. Also I have anxiety about being pregnant because of polly and how crazy she's gotten, I sorta don't wanna expand or family when we have so much drama going on.. I'll have to talk to her soon. I wanna go to the doctor and see but I don't want to tell jughead yet because I wouldn't wanna disappoint him if I'm not pregnant. I've taken no tests yet, I just am too scared to see if I'll be happy with the results or not. Also the last time I took a pregnancy test I wasn't in a good place, I just feel to traumatized to take one, it's stupid but it's just like PTSD from chuck.

I felt so sick but I didn't want to wake jug up. I snuck out of bed covering my mouth praying to make it to the bathroom. Thankfully I got to the floor in toilet in enough time before I hovered over the toilet letting my stomach. I didn't want to cry but for some reason I did. Quietly I just kind of sat there dizzy and sad wondering if I was gonna grow my family or not. I flushed the toilet and got myself back together, I probably was just moody from it being super early. I went to turn around and get back to sleep but when I did jughead was walking through the door of the bathroom. Shit.
   
    "Betty are you throwing up again." He asked rubbing his eyes. "Sorry I didn't mean to wake you up." I said clutching my stomach leaning on the bathroom cabinets. "Betty are you sure you don't have anything to tell me." Jughead said sitting down next to me and leaning on the cabinets to the bathroom. I just looked down, I didn't want to tell him all the stuff going on but I didn't want to keep it from him either. "Betty, you know you can trust me, I'll never be mad love." He said taking one of my hands from my lap and squeezing it tight. I just took a deep breath and stared at the tile too afraid to say anything. "I'm ok. We can talk in the morning ok.." I said sighing and leaning over to rest my head onto his shoulder. "Ok." He said holding onto my waist and gently tracing patterns where his hand was left. "Let's get in bed Jug." I said standing back up and he did as well. He nodded his head in response to my comment before we both headed into the bed. "Goodnight princess." He told me as I wrapped my leg over his torso cuddling up right next to each other.

    I noticed Jug was fast asleep but for some reason I just couldn't. I knew I had so many people supporting me with this but I felt so alone, I don't know why I did because I obviously had a great support system but it's just how I felt. I literally just sat lying in bed for like 3 hours until the alarm went off and jughead woke up. "Hey. Did you sleep ok?" He said yawning and rolling over so that we were facing eachother. "I'm gonna go wash my face and stuff, I'll meet you downstairs." I explained before slipping out of bed. I started walking to the bathroom before I heard jughead say "wait betty." I looked back at him, he sat up in bed and had a longing look in his face making my heart literally stop. "Jug.. let me get ready." I said going against all my will not to go run up to him and explain this mess.

     As I walked into the bathroom I heard jughead groan. "God dammit Elizabeth." Shit, I hope he wasn't too mad. I washed my face and did all that shit and came back out the bathroom to see jughead sitting on the edge of thebed waiting for me. "Betty come sit." He expalined to me making me stand still in my tracks. Jughead got up, his bare chest coming close to me and grabbing onto my hands. "Betty come on, please." He said snapping me out my trance. "Jug.." I wispered keeping my head down but positinioning my eyes to look into his. "Betty, Im not only your husband but I'm your bestfreind. I'm your biggest fan. I'm your top supporter and I'm everything else to you. You can trust me Betty. You can tell me everything, or at least just as much as you want to say, but I'm here for you, I'm someone you can trust." He moving one of his hands up to cup my cheek. I felt a tear roll down my cheek and onto Jugs hand, he moved his thumb to brush my cheek making me smile. "I know jughead. It not that I don't trust you it's just that I don't know what wrong with me." I sighed as two more tears rolled down. "Betty don't cry please, you gonna make me sad too." He said giggling and pulling me into a hug.