Baby take a chance on me- Aston Merrygold fanfic (completed)

#31

"why don't we give us another try?" Aston randomly asked as we were sat on his couch watching tv.

"what?" I asked laughing a long with the joke he had just made.

"I'm being serious babe, there's nothing stopping us now"

"Ast, you know that's not what I want"

"so what was that upstairs then? a random shag?"

"no, you know what I want"

"but I don't though, I really don't know what you want"

It was then it hit me. Even I didn't know what I wanted, yeah I can finally admit Ive fell for him all over again and what we shared up stairs was the most amazing time ever but. I just can't bring myself to another relationship. Knowing I wouldn't get the constant attention I would want from a boyfriend. As shallow as it feels I'd hate to think there's thousands of girls around trying to have a go with my boyfriend. I wouldn't be able to relax around all the attention. I'd believe every story published in an attempt to split us up. It just wouldn't work

"so what do you wat?" He asked looking me in the eyes this time.

"for us to be friends" I smiled trying to pull the most convincing face I could.

"right then, would you like a lift home?"

"no it's fine, I came in my car" I said before slipping on my coat and leaving the house as quickly as I could leaving Aston sitting probably thinking over what I had just said to him.

Astons p.o.v

I just don't get it. She keeps sending me mixed signals constantly. The kisses, dates and now sleeping with me and the only label we have is friends. Why is she so scared. I honestly don't understand but I'm not giving up now. One thing my parents taught me while growing up was to chase my dreams. And there she is the girl of my dreams Ive let her go once before now I just need to get her back.