The Return

Chapter 26

Jimin, Tae and I worked hard to make the changes the library needed for our next steps in life.

Its been about two weeks since I had last seen Yoongi. He's completely locked himself in his room.

Honestly makes things a little easier for Jimin and I. All we want for Yoongi is for him to be happy.

Tae is the only one allowed to check up on him here and there. Tae was told that I wasn't allowed to see Yoongi.

Well more like he didn't want to see me.

Maybe I was never enough to help him move on.

Maybe this is the only way...

Tae came into the lab while I was working and Jimin was assisting.

We stopped a moment and looked at him. He had just gone up to check on Yoongi.

"Same as usual?" Jimin asked.

Tae seemed to have a worried expression.

"I tried to continue to explain why we are renovating and why we made an alliance with RM. He just seemed so uninterested."

I felt slightly defeated.

I haven't done anything wrong and yet he doesn't want to see me.

And he was the one worried I would leave him a few days ago. Worried I wouldn't feel anything for him when I'm the one who should be worried. I wish I could properly explain to him that I do feel something for him that I don't feel for anyone else. An emotion I can't logically explain. Maybe if I can do this for him I can move on, knowing I've done something right. Move on and figure myself out. Maybe I should just forget my illogical feelings and just focus on what I do understand.

"Let's wrap up for tonight. Were close to finishing here. We should be well rested for the rest don't you think?"

Jimin agreed and we went our separate ways.

As I was going to my new apartment as the old one was still being repaired, I passed by Yoongi's apartment door.

I stood there for a moment wanting to just burst in there and tell him everything on my mind.

But I know that he wouldn't mention not seeing me if I didn't hurt him in some way.

I'll always just be an A.I. a computer that's convenient. A useful mind.

I continued to my apartment and got ready for bed.

After a nice long shower washing off the dirt from working all day I got into a nightgown and stared at myself.

Even though I might not be what Yoongi wants I can still tell myself that I'm still needed. That I'm not an abomination.

Sometimes I think too much about the facts of everything. The way my mind is always thinking hurts and tires me out. Thousands upon thousands of data, connecting to other bits of information. A loud hum in my mind. One that is hard to ignore, but with him they don't exist. I shook my head. I need to stop depending on him. I need to accept who I am.

At least Jimin and Tae seem to care about me. They seem to see me as a person.

I got into my bed. It was quite large and often made me feel more alone.

I hate that I do this to myself, but I often think about the times Yoongi was sleeping beside me.

"Once I'm finished... Maybe he'll finally be okay." I said quietly to myself in the darkness of my room.

I tossed and turned for a while.

Loosing track of time.

I couldn't sleep.

I got up and took my robe. I'll just work some more on my own in the lab. The sooner it's done the better.

I swung open my front door and bumped into Yoongi.

I was surprised to see him outside of his room let alone being in front of my door.

He looked to be just as surprised almost guilty like if I wasn't supposed to see him there.

"O-oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to bump into you..." I immediately looked away from him.

I knew he didn't want to see me. I'll just stay in my apartment so that he doesn't need to see me more then he must.

"I'll just go..." I muttered.

His face twisted in sadness. Like if my sadness and reaction to seeing him made him feel bad.

I awkwardly started to close the door on him, but he stopped it from closing.

"I-I know I probably have no right in hoping that you still feel anything towards me after pushing you out like this but..."

He looked at me directly. He was clearly fighting himself from crying.

"Can I spend the night with you? ... I don't want to be alone..."

I was confused about how he felt towards me. Maybe I made up inaccurate scenarios, but his question felt so weak. He seemed scared and I just wanted to shield him from the pain he was in.

Too shocked to answer him I just opened my door wider to let him in and motioned for him to enter.

He stood near the bed. He seemed exhausted. Did he not sleep at all this whole time?

I got into the bed and I gently guided him into bed. I was lying down on my side and had him tightly in my arms. I tried my best to make him feel like he wasn't alone. I was trying hard to comfort him even though I was still confused.

Then he started to cry. I just continued to hold him.

"I'm so sorry Yumi... You don't deserve this kind of treatment from me..." he said between sobs.

"I'm not sure what happened honestly... I don't know why you didn't want to see me?" I was trying to stay emotionally strong for him. I didn't want him to feel any more guilt.

"JK01 told me to make a choice between keeping you in my life or replacing you with Hoseok. He had this chip that he said had Hoseoks' consciousness in it which he extracted from my mind..."

"Oh... " I didn't know Jungkook was playing mind games on him... Not like that.

"And I made up my mind and then you came crashing in ... You see I chose-"

"I don't think I want to know" I cut him off out of fear. It was obvious he would have chosen Hoseok over me. But I didn't want too to hear him say those words. Not out loud. It's obvious he would want his friend back. The man who sacrificed everything for him. The man who comforted him when the library was filled with books and mysteries.

He looked at me intensely. His eyes glowing brightly in the darkness of my room.

"I chose you."