Exiled

August 27

Three quick things about me: One I didn't give a fuck what people thought about me, Two I really didn't give a fuck about Jerell's feelings because a) we weren't friends and b) I knew more about him than he thought I did, and the third thing about me was that I was madly in love with Jacobi. And before someone says I'm too young to know what love is let me break down and repeat it for the people in the back..... the fact that Jacobi is the only person I've ever cried for and I'm not talking about shedding a few tears, nah I broke the fuck down when we broke up, ugly sobbing, crying like a fuckin baby and ONLY someone you love can make you feel that way. I loved Jacobi so much that there was literally nothing I wouldn't do for that dude and I've proved it time and time again; I've fought for Jacobi, fought with Jacobi, I've drove all over this damn country to support Jacobi..... so for the haters who think that I have some ulterior motives against Jerell..... I'm not thinking about that dude my main concern was getting my dude back. Now I know the next question is if I love him so much why did we break and the answer is simple.... it didn't matter, what happened in the past needed to stay there, I wasn't going to bring up old shyt because it had ZERO effect on our future and I loved him too much to hold anything he may or may not have done against him because I wouldn't want him to do that to me.

"Bruh you ugly as fuck....." My big brother Ahmad said walking into my room and I could tell he was looking for a fight, that's usually how it went whenever he had either fucked up with his girl or fucked up with our parents. "It's summer why is your bitch ass laid up in the house?" Ahmad asked barging into my room and knocking my feet off my bed.

"First I look better than you #FACTS, second you're like twenty-seven and you still live at home with our parents, third..... please get off my bed because the last thing I want is for you crabs to get loose and attack me while I'm sleepin..... OWWWW..... BITCH ASS NIGGA!!!!" I said rubbing my leg where Ahmad had hit me. "Look I know you're probably looking for a fight and as much as I would love to entertain you, I really don't have the energy.... but I gotta ask who was it that pissed you off today."

"Man, before I get, started let me address the lies you told; I look the best, I'm nineteen not twenty-seven, and I don't have crabs bitch... but to get to your question Mya's ass is trippin trying to get me to 'settle down' and that we need to start looking into moving in together. Now I really wouldn't have a problem with it but she's trying to move to Memphis and I don't know anybody in Memphis.... so when I told her that I wanted to do some research first she started crying and shyt talking about 'you don't wanna move because you probably got some bitch down here' and a whole bunch of other nonsense.

"Ahmad.... you're an idiot bro, I peeped this shyt weeks ago and I'm actually surprised you haven't noticed it yet." I said looking at my idiot brother. "Let me break it down for you, your... girl.... went up.... a bra size, your girl..... has been.... going through..... mood swings, your.... girl has been.... eating all sorts of weird shyt. Add that all together and what does that suggest to you?" I asked slowly because I was convinced that Ahmad was missing a few screws and to prove my point Ahmad just looked at me as if I was speaking a foreign language. I got up and grabbed my wallet and handed him a twenty dollar bill.

"What's this for?" He asked looking at the money.

"A pregnancy test stupid......." Clévon said walking into my room with my oldest brother Aries and for a second I thought Ahmad was about to have an emotional breakdown. "Aries you should uhh go with him because he looks like he's about to be sick or something....." Clévon said and Aries put his arm around Ahmad's shoulder and steered him out the room. "So where's your boo?" Clévon asked sitting on the bed next to me and I smirked a little.

"Jacobi took a little road trip with his cousin, Semaj, Nazeer, and Torique...... but since we're on the subjects of boos wassup with you and Naz?" I asked looking at Clévon to see if he would lie about the undeniable chemistry between him and Naz.

"That's not my boo..... he's not my type, he's coo as fuck don't get me wrong but..... I'ma be honest with you, his dick is too big, I like niggas with average to small dicks. Big dick niggas are nice to look at but most of them don't know what the fuck they're doing and I don't have time to be walking around holeless...... which brings me to my next question where are your friends at? I know gay dudes always got straight friends that are secretly curious and I'm trying to turn out a 'straight' dude." Clévon said.

"Bruh my friends aren't like that, trust me I've tried and you wouldn't want any of my friends either because most of them got big dicks and the ones that don't..... are less than cute." I said seriously and I know somebody is reading this wondering if my friends are straight how do I know their dicks are big, so let me answer that question..... straight dudes do some of the gayest shyt and I play sports so when we're showering or in the locker room them I check them out.

"August I've been down here a little over a week and I need some dick..... if I don't have sex I start acting crazy and you know how crazy us Miami Cunninghams can get." Clévon said and I rolled my eyes.

"Von give me a day and I promise I'll find someone for you..... matter fact I may have someone for you, he's not exactly gay but I'm sure you can work some magic. Now get out while I talk to my boo." I said answering the phone and looking down at Jacobi. "Y'all niggas still on the road?" I asked.

"Nah we're at a rest stop..... but I figured I'd call and make sure you ain't got any niggas over there." Jacobi said and I smirked, truth be told with the exception of that nigga I met at that party a few weeks ago (the one who couldn't take dick) Jacobi was the only person I've been consistently fuckin with.

"And if I did Cobi you're really not in a position to say shyt because you got a whole girl..... I mean dude that you're dating so what I do is none of your concern. Now if you were to drop that nigga and get back with the love of your life you can ask those type of questions but until then......." I said flipping the screen around and showing him my print. "Until then you have no control over what me and him do." I said turning the screen back to me. "He misses you though......" I said smirking.

"I miss him too..... but in all seriousness August...... I..... look I gotta tell you this in person, but look we're about to get back on the road, I'll hit you up when we get to the hotel. I love you." Jacobi said warming my heart.

"I love you too Cobi..... and definitely Facetime me when y'all get settled in because I MIGHT put on a little show for you." I said winking before I hung up.

"August, you love Jacobi, Jacobi loves you.... why aren't y'all together?" Clévon asked from the door.

"That's the million dollar question, now I could very easily take him back from Jerell but where's the fun in that plus my mama always says that 'how you get them is how you lose them' so I'm cautious about taking him because I don't want karma to come back on me. But Cobi tells me every EXCEPT why he won't break up with Jerell, that shyt is mind-boggling like Cobi knows that Jerell is cheating on him but he won't break up with him." I said laying back then jumping up. "I'm hungry let's go get something to eat and I'll call my boy so you can meet him." I said grabbing my wallet and walking out my room. We got to the mall and like always it was packed, don't ask me why but I loved eating in the mall's food court; as me and Clévon waited for my boy to show up I spotted Jerell with this older white dude and at first I thought it was nothing until the white man pulled out his wallet, paid for some stuff and then kissed Jerell.

"You wanna beat his ass?" Clévon asked and I shook my head, nah I trusted that Jacobi had a reason for fucking with this slut so I was going to leave it alone.... although it did bother me that Jerell was so open with his cheating, I mean he could at least have enough respect to do it in secret like me and Cobi. "Where's this nigga at?" Clévon asked and I was starting to wonder that as well because my boy was usually on time, I pulled out my phone to call him when I noticed someone I hated more than Jerell and that was Pastor Teague with some members of his church choir walking through the mall....... Maybe it was seeing Jerell blatantly cheat on OUR dude, or maybe it had something to do with Ahmad's dumb ass leaving a bruise on my leg, or maybe it was just that Cunningham anger that was in all of the men in my family but whatever it was seeing Pastor Teague was my breaking point and usually when I got mad I did something stupid...............................

****** QUESTIONS ******

1) As of right now I'm pushing back TLP in Anthology to do more research, so what should be the story in Anthology; The Outsiders, Morehouse, Back In The Day, Brewer Boys, or He How Walks Through Darkness?