Exiled

Jacobi 46

 I hated everything about this office, because to me it represented everything that was wrong in the world; this notion that God was this all powerful being that allowed one of his 'messengers' to abuse children, the fact that Pastor Teague had the whole community convinced that he was this saint when in all actuality he was the biggest sinner of them all, all these pictures of him with celebrities and politicians just showed how far his reach went and all these degrees in psychology let me know just how good he was at mind games. I also hated that my phone never seemed to work in this room, as I stood in the middle of the room while Pastor Teague sat at his big oak desk and pointed to the chair directly across from it, he wanted me to sit down but like always I defied him.... in hindsight maybe that wasn't a good idea because only seemed to turn him on even more. Pressing a button on this remote control switch he had I heard the door lock behind me and my heart began to race.... hopefully Quran or Tripp weren't too far away so that they could hear me if I got myself into a situation I wasn't prepared for.

"Jacobi you know why you're my favorite student? It's that fire in you... no matter how hard I try you always seemed to push back against my teachings, my wisdom. See I'm trying to mold you into a better man; you're extremely smart but you lack discipline and direction, and you have anger problems. My lessons are to help you channel that anger you feel in your heart... Do you know why I approved you to date Jerell?" Pastor Teague asked and I shrugged. "It's because I knew Jerell would teach you patience, though he is completely unaware of his role I knew he was going to help tame some of your wilder impulses."

"Gee thanks...." I said sarcastically. "I just find it weird that my own parents don't have a say in who I can and can't date and yet I listened to you." I said looking into his eyes.

"That's because your parents WANT what's best for you.... I KNOW what's best for you, also your parents would never slit the throat of anyone who dares to touch you without my permission, which brings me to August." Pastor Teague said getting up and walking across the room. "I think you should break up with him, he's a terrible influence on you and I don't like the way he so casually put his arm around you last night.... or how he kissed you..... or how you grabbed his dick....." Pastor Teague whispered in my ear and I felt a chill go down my spine.

"I'm not breaking up with August......" I said firmly and Pastor Teague started laughing. "I'm deadass serious you can't force me to break up with him and you're not crazy enough to go after him." I said looking into his eyes and he shrugged.

"But I have other ways of controlling you Jacobi..... your parents, your cousin, a few others that I really don't plan on mentioning. So I'll give you a couple hours to think about it and I want you to come by my house later on tonight to give me your answer, for now, I just need you to go help Jerell in the kitchen." He said unlocking the door and I swear I should've killed him right there. "Oh, and Jacobi one more thing.... no more trips to Albany to see Chris, my old plaything isn't exactly sane y'know the terrors of war and the horrors he faces at that conversion camp have really fucked up his brain and I don't want him feeding you lies about me." Pastor Teague said returning to his desk. I walked out into the hallway and I saw Quran waiting for me.

"We need to talk..... where's Tripp?" I asked looking around and Quran pointed to the door, we walked outside and Tripp was standing by his car talking to his boyfriend Victor; things with me and Victor were weird.... aside from the fact that he was my ex we shared a tragic event together, the same tragic event that landed Semaj in jail. Honestly we never really talked about that night but.... why was I even thinking about it? Whatever Victor was like my brother my relationship with him was different than it was with Naz and I felt bad for leaving Vic out of our plans however Tripp insisted. "Sup Victor.... ayy you mind if we burrow Thaddeus for a sec." I said pulling Tripp off to the side.