Yours Truly

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-X-

We were once in love, 

Now I watched as you turned you back from me. 

You dark hair combed differently, hands in your pocket. 

While I stood there, bit my lip, and opened my eyes to see. 

You truly never deserved me, 

I loved you with everything I ever had. 

Yet you chose to set me free, 

Than to make your mother mad. 

You broke my fucking heart when I bared it to you openly, 

Lowered my dignity just to keep you around. 

Now I can't help myself in the corner of my room as I sob quietly, 

Reminiscing the magic between us like a stuck up melodrama sound. 

And tears just fall, 

Like the gravity that makes rain pour down the ground. 

And I question again and again of how could I forget you, 

When everything about you brings my heart to make a sound? 

I gave my all to you but you only gave me little, 

Was it even called love if you know it hurts me yet you continue to dry our ink in the letter? 

I know I didn't deserve having what little of myself left to be belittled, 

But I stayed and convinced myself you would change yourself for the better. 

How could you ruin a person who did nothing but to love you right? 

How could you bring heartbreak to the girl whom you promised forever? 

There's so many hows in every poems and tears dwell in my sight, 

Yet everything burst in emotions as I try so hard to forget but my mind always remember. 

I know that I'm better off alone now, 

Than being with someone who never treated me right. 

I know that this is our last goodbye, 

But I often wonder why my heart still can't accept everything late at night. 

I cannot understand why you just threw everything apart, 

Like I meant nothing at all. 

Like what we had didn't amaze you like a beautiful art, 

Now it took every ounce of me not to call. 

I remembered crying every night, Waiting for your words to be sweet once more,

But who I am fooling?

We were already over when you walked out the door,

Leaving me behind with an endless tears falling.

I would cross the entire ocean for you, 

Yet you couldn't cross a puddle just for me. 

Now let's be real realistic, 

You only loved me when it's convenient but never when things get messy.

-X-