My little Flower (HiccupxOC, part 1 of Grimborn Family AU)

Chapter 46 - Not okay

Lilly's POV

For a moment nobody said a word. We just stood there staring at each other in pregnant silence.
I raised my head carefully but refused to let go of my brother, afraid that my own mind was playing games with me and he would disappear again as soon as I pulled away. Hiccup's eyes met mine, he looked both shocked and relieved at the same time but there was also something else glimmering in his eyes, something I couldn't place. I wanted to say something, walk up to him and hug him, but I couldn't. I just couldn't move, I was frozen in my place with Viggo's body being the only thing that kept me from falling, my legs could not be trusted and I felt horrible because of it. Hiccup looked utterly lost the way he stood there, clenching his hands open and closed and bit his lower lip, insecure about what to do or say. It broke my heart seeing him like this and I felt tears well up in my eyes again at my incapability to act on it. I never felt so pathetic before.

Eventually he realized that I wouldn't move away from Viggo and he broke our gaze, turning to look at Valka instead and I could swear I saw single tear run down his cheek. Clearing his throat he broke the silence first. "W-who are you?" his voice sounded hoarse.

Valka looked from Hiccup to Viggo and me and then back to Hiccup again suspiciously, trying to get on terms what was going on. "I could ask you the same question." she said, crossing her arms.

This time Viggo spoke up: "I am Viggo Grimborn and this is my sister, Lilly. My friend Hiccup here and I were searching for her. May I ask how you know her?"

They were searching for me, both of them. I buried my face deeper into his tunic, inhaling his familiar scent like it was the only thing that could keep me from falling apart.

Valka's eyes widened as she stared back at Hiccup again and answered absentmindedly. "I found Lilly on this island two days ago, she was wounded and I took her with me." She turned her head to look at me and added. "Lilly, I'm happy for you that your brother is alive but it will be the best if I go now." Valka inhaled deeply and was about to leave when the roaring sound of another voice came closer.

"How long can it possibly take to collect more fire wood?"

Stoick appeared soon after with noisy footsteps. "Hiccup what are you..."

He stopped dead in his tracks as his eyes fell first on Viggo and me before his gaze wandered to Valka who stood a few feet away, paralyzed.

"Oh my... this can't be." he breathed and took off his helmet. Slowly he approached Valka who backed away slightly, obviously distressed.

"I know what you're going to say Stoick." she raised one arm in a defensive manner. "You're going to say how could you? Leave you alone all those years and didn't come back. Let you raise our son alone. But I pleaded so many times to stop the fighting against dragons and would you ever listen? I thought you were better off without me. It's okay if your angry, just say something, shout, scream ...Oh don't be so stoic, Stoick..." her voice sounded panicked now and all of us stared at the unexpected situation in front of us wide eyed.

Valka knows Stoick? My mouth dropped as I watched Stoick reaching out a hand to touch Valka's cheek hearing him whisper. "You're as beautiful as the day I lost you." Then he leaned in and kissed her.

Beside me I could hear Hiccup gasp in shock and turned to see him shake his head in disbelief, he was visibly trembling. "Okay, whoa so w-what's going on here? Dad?"

Stoick stepped aside and I watched a shaking Valka walk up to Hiccup carefully. "I'm sorry Hiccup, you were just a babe when I left. But a mother never forgets." She reached out a hand to him but Hiccup stumbled backwards, panting heavily now. "You're my mother? But how...why?"