Just A Crush

chapter 10: Strong

" Grandma " I said as I hugged my grandmother

" my little angel. How are you "

" I'm fine grandma how is LA "

" busy... Come let's sit down "

" OK " I said as we walked into the living room.
There were many shopping bags next to the couch.

" who are those for? " I asked

" for you of course angel "

" grandma... That is a lot of stuff "

" are you going to gawk at it or are you going to open them and be grateful " she smiled

After an hour of opening bags I had new clothes, pjs, a new phone,shoes , bags, candy, a Sponge Bob pillow which I love and a cute sweater which she knitted herself.

" thank you grandma, you're the best "

" don't you forget " she smiled

" when is your father coming home? " she asked

" around seven ish "

" OK go and shower " she smiled again but this time I could see the sadness in it.

" grandma? "
She hummed in reply

" is everything okay? "

" of course dear "

" are you sure? "

" Avery, no matter what happens to you always be strong and keep being happy, OK? "

" ok?" I replied very confused.

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I had a shower and spent the rest of the day with my grandmother. We made popcorn and watched an old movie titled the first wives club .

" Benedict should never try to mess with me or he is going to end up worse than those men "
She stated when we were almost through with the movie

" get up " she said standing up

" why? "

" because I love this song "

" OK "

" YOU DON'T OWN ME " we sang along with the ladies in the movie.

We were so caught up in singing and dancing we didn't realise that my dad came home.

" dad " I smiled as he gave me a sad smile in return.

" Brad how are you ?"

" I'm fine Christine "

" OK what's going on here "

Dad and grandma never talk like that they only threw sarcastic comments at each other and hardly ever act like adults. In fact they only act civil when other people were around.

" Avery sit down... We need to talk " my dad said as the three of us sat on the couch.

It scared me. The fact that my father called me Avery which he only did if I was in trouble, the fact that my father looked very sad, the way they looked at me with pity and sadness.

Could this have to do with what Crystal was trying to hide. There was a high chance it does.

" d...did I do something wrong daddy? " I gulped I was very scared.
My dad only shook his head in reply.

" angel, your mother is getting married " my grandmother said

" oh " was all I could say

" why didn't she tell me herself? " I asked

" you know her, she's a very busy person "
My dad replied

" is she r...really busy or sh...she's ashamed of me, I'm I t...that horrible that my own m...mother doesn't w...want me? Wh...what did I ever do to her "
I felt tears running from my eyes I couldn't help it I was very angry.

" honey, you are not horrible -"

" then why dad, wh...why does she treat me like I'm n..not im...important to her ?"
This time they couldn't reply. I chuckled and use the sleeves of my shirt to clean my tears.

" is there anything else " I managed to compose myself.

My grandma nodded

" I don't see what you are worried about, I'm fine. It doesn't bother me see" I smiled giving a thumbs up

" she's pregnant "

Have you ever felt so heartbroken, you think no pain can be worse then something and happens and the pain increases and then you realize there can be more pain. That was what I felt. At first I felt like someone grabbed my heart and squeezed the life out of it then, I felt like my heart was ripped out and crushed right in front of me. It was painful.

I watched my grandma and dad look at me for any kind of reaction but I didn't do anything.
" like I said, I'm fine. You don't need to worry. Grandma, you said to be strong right? I'm completely fine " I tried to act but the tears falling from my eyes were a giveaway.

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" I have to go, you know your grandfather " my grandmother gave a small smile as she left.

Dad went to his room. He wanted to stay but I refused I knew he was tired and sad and I hated seeing him that way. It made me feel miserable.

" honey, we're home " Crystal and James came in.

" hey " I said trying to smile but I think it just made my face look weird.

" now now young Avery it is not time to be sad " James said with a Santa Claus imitated voice. Only then did I realize James was dressed as Santa Claus and Crystal, an elf.

" it's not Christmas "

" everyday is Christmas if you believe " James replied as they plopped themselves on the couch putting me between them.

James took out his guitar and began playing.

Turn up the music
Let out the loud sound
You know we're right here
Even if no one's around
So turn that face to a smile

Then Crystal joined in
Because you know
We're here for you
Whether or not
This song is cool

They Sang together

Who cares about the world
I've got you
And you've got me
We we have each other
We are together
So Avery stop crying
We are together

wanted to smile at the terrible song we wrote together last year. The song was meant to cheer each other up and it worked until now.

I started crying again.

" my little Ave " James said as he kept his guitar and hugged me.
" it's alright. Everything is fine "
Crystal said gently patting my back.

After a few minutes, I stopped crying and we decided to watch some TV.
" let's watch e news, they better say something about Shawn "
Crystal said as she turned on the TV and put Enews

' baby number two? '

' Emilia Ganes is said to be expecting a child with her boyfriend now fiancee of two years. Now, there have been rumors that she has another child but the couple denied it at the premiere of Emilia's new movie
'the hunt' which she-'

" Fuck. I told you technology has ruined us, but you didn't listen and you allowed me to watch it " Crystal said as she switched off the TV.

And all I could think of was

My mother denied me.