Just A Crush

chapter 11: Popping The Question

Cos here I am doing all I can and all you ever do is mess it up.

My mother denied me
My own mother.

Does she hate me that much. Am I that bad.

My chest clenched. I had a massive headache. I wanted to scream or hit something but then again, maybe it was a mistake maybe the paparazzi took it the wrong way. I picked up my phone and dialed a familiar number

It rung

Once

Then twice

Until someone picked up

" hello, who am I speaking to " I recognized the French accent

" Stefan its Avery, I want to talk to my mother "

" no no no why won't you get it to your thick head she is not your mother and if you don't know already, she is pregnant and she doesn't need anyone bothering her don't you ever call again comprehendè? "
He hung up and tears began to pour from my eyes.

" come here " Crystal said as she and James hugged me.

I don't know how long I cried but when I checked the time it was a few minutes past ten.

" you guys should probably go, we have school tomorrow "

" yeah " Crystal said picking up her elf cap and using it to hit a sleeping James who only grabbed her waist and snuggled with her on the couch.

" wha... James let go of me or so help me "

" fine I'm up " he groaned

" I swear he has the grip of a Mexican wrestler " she mumble

" I heard that " James said as he stretched and she stuck out her tongue.

I almost laughed.
Almost

" I'll just go get my stuff in your room OK? "
I nodded as she went to my room .

My mind started replaying all the words Stefan said. It just hurt me more.

I didn't know when Crystal came down with a blanket and covered me with it. I didn't even realize when her and James left.

My happiest memory was with my mother and father. We were all baking. Dad mistakenly smeared butter on her nose and even after he apologized, she threw flour on his face, which got some a five year old me sitting on the counter.

the ingredients finished on me and and my parents. No cookies were baked.

Tears fell from my eyes as I remembered.

My dad says I should look at the bright side of everything. Maybe it's good that I'm going to have a sibling I mean, I've always wanted a younger brother or sister.

I that didn't make me feel better. I cried a lot and at about three am in the morning, I decided to watch TV
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' Emilia's engagement, is one of the hottest news right now, her fiancee serenaded her before popping the question.

The actress said it was the happiest moment of her life and said she was complete. She also shared a picture of her diamond ring on instagram and a video of the entire thing "

I blanked out after that. I cried even more when they showed a video of my mother as her boyfriend played the guitar and proposed to her, she had a huge smile on her face and tears of joy falling from her eyes.

I felt terrible.

At some point I fell asleep .
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I was woken by. My dad at five o'clock in the morning. My eyes hurt from crying too much and I was sure I had bags under them.
My dad didn't look too good either, he also had bags under his eyes and his hair was disheveled.
" maybe you shouldn't go to school today " he said

" no I'm fine " I argued

" no " his voice cracked

And I remembered yesterday wasn't a dream, it actually happened it made me cry again.

" daddy " I sobbed as I hugged him

" it's alright " he said but I could feel tears fall on my hair.

After that, I woke up around I didn't check the time, I brushed my teeth and showered.
I had bags under my eyes and my hair was a mess before I showered. I ran a brush through my hair a few times and wore a tank top and sweat pants.

I lied on my bed hugging my Sponge Bob pillow close.

I got up when I remembered something. I pushed my bed so it was far enough from the wall and I knelt down. Using a knife grandma gave me once for protection, I put it between the wood on the floor and pulling it till the wood popped up, I pulled out a few of the wood until I could fit in it and I pulled out an old suitcase.

One of the things I like about the house was the hidden places I could hide things, there were secret safes every where. I have no idea why the former owner had it built but I was okay with it.

I opened the suitcase and looking at everything in it almost made me cry.

I picked up an old teddy bear my mother bought for me one of the button eyes fell off so she stitched it. I kept it away and picked up a framed picture, it was me and my parents at a restaurant we were had a group hug and a photographer captured the moment. He gave them the picture as their anniversary gift.

I sobbed as I picked up everything, they all reminded me of her.

cleaning my tears, returned everything and went to my closet another place that had a secret hiding place to a person who doesn't know, the closet was a normal closet but, if you move my clothes, you would see two holes on the wall. I assumed the owner had door knobs there and had them removed, maybe he didn't want people to know...
Oh well.

I opened the secret place and entered. It wasn't very big. Well it was as big as a jail cell don't ask me how I know.

The wall was covered with pictures of my mother, magazines she featured and almost all the movies she acted well except her latest one ' the hunt '. I followed her on every social media just to know what she was doing, commented and liked every post just to get her attention.

Now it wasn't worth it because I'm not her daughter.