Hooligan | Dazai Osamu

Under The Lullaby Of Rain

Small rain drops were echoing in the room like a quiet gentle melody, playing in the background. The rain wasn't as heavy as it was in autumn so the sounds of it weren't too loud to break the idyll, that was in the room. Summer rains were your favorite type of rains out of all. It was peaceful and calming as if it was just begging for you to fall asleep under its lullaby.

Finally, the unbearable heat and dust, that came from the drought, were all washed away along with the demons, that tortured your loved one at night. The temperature in your not-so-big, but cozy apartment was just perfect: it wasn't too hot and not too cold, but just the right one to stay in only your panties and one of Dazai's t-shirts, that you loved wearing. Dazai, in turn, was only staying in his boxers, not bothering to cover himself more. Even his bandages were loosened and almost all of them were taken off by you because you wanted his skin to breathe a little, plus, you've seen him without bandages numerous of times so he didn't have to be embarrassed.

Sheets were tangled somewhere near the end of the bed, you two were laying on, as they were long forgotten and needless. You were cuddling with your oh-so-dear bandaged maniac, almost falling asleep. Your head was resting on his chest, right above his heart so you could hear his calm heartbeat; your legs were tangled with his as only your knee was thrown over his thigh, locking him in your embrace, but Dazai didn't even mind. He was lying underneath you with his arm wrapped around your waist tightly as his other hand was holding yours, the one that was on his chest, with your fingers intertwined. His hair was messily spread all over the pillow, which, you had to admit, looked adorable.

His chest was raising up and down slowly, lulling you as well, as he was just about to fall asleep. His mouth was ajar, his eyes were closed and his facial features were so relaxed, that you actually thought that he did fell asleep already. After all, he barely got any sleep last night: the demons of his past reached him in his slumber, showing him all the horrific images about you, that he hoped to never see. He was crying in his sleep, what woke you up luckily so that you could wake him up too from that nightmare. Of course, after that, he couldn't sleep normally anymore, even while being locked protectively in your embrace, and only in the morning, he was finally able to get a couple of hours of sleep.

So now, you just wished for him to fall asleep and rest. As soon as you heard the first sounds of the rain, you closed the curtains and dragged him to the bed with you, saying that he needed to at least just lie down and relax, if not sleep. He was against it at first, telling you that he was still worried because of the nightmare, but your embrace, smell, warmth and the lullaby of rain made his eyelids heavy in quite a short time.

You nuzzled in his chest more, inhaling his scent. He was such a blessing in your life, yet for some reason, he was always the one, who suffered the most. If only you could unlock the tight grip of his fears and memories, that held his neck tightly, suffocating him. You loved him more, than you ever loved anyone or anything else so now, his happiness would become your happiness as well.

Your Dazai Osamu. Oh, how sweetly those words sounded. You could never get enough of hearing or saying them because you could never fully realize that this walking miracle now belonged to you only. All those years, spent alone, that often made you cry at night because of how badly you craved for the warmth of a loved one, were definitely worth the present. Being with Dazai was undoubtedly worth all those tears, troubles and sleepless night for his love was healing all the scars, that were covering your heart.

A part of you was even proud, that you, not anyone else, were meant to be his soulmate and to share all the happiness and sadness with him. You were just ready to tear up because of all the happiness, that filled your whole body while simply lying with him like that. He never thought of himself as a good person, but paradoxically, he was the only one, who could save you from the painful darkness of loneliness.

And what was the best thing of being with him? It's simple. He just loved as much as you loved him and he also could no longer imagine his life without you in it.

Finally, you heard a quiet snuffling from Dazai as you exhaled with relief. Slumber took over him and now, he could get some rest he deserved long ago.

And you too could now rest under the calming, loving lullaby of rain, knowing that your dear soulmate will no longer be touched by the darkness of his past.

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