Hooligan | Dazai Osamu

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"(Y/N)!" Dazai whined dramatically with his usual antics "Take this off of me~"

He pointed at the bright red tinsel, wrapped around his neck like a scarf, that you've wrapped around his neck just a few seconds ago. You just happened to find one in one of the boxes with Christmas decorations, while you were decorating the Christmas tree and this idea came to your head instantly.

Dazai looked so goofy with this tinsel on him that it was quite hard to hold back the laughter, but you were trying to at least.

"But Osamu~ It suits you so much~" You chuckled as you moved closer to him and wrapped your hands around his neck "Please, don't take it off~ I'll love you even with this goofy tinsel on~"

"Well~" He pretended to think for a while "I will keep it only if you kiss me~"

You smiled softly, not being able to deny his request, and leaned in closer to his face before pressing your lips to his gently.

This was Dazai's first Christmas that he wasn't spending alone in his apartment, while reading his all time favorite book or while emptying his bottles of sake. Christmas was supposed to be spent with family, that Dazai never had so this was all he could do that day. During his days in the mafia, he was always one of those few people, who stayed at work on Christmas instead of going home to the family dinner. Dazai was never a hard working person, but he preferred doing his paperwork instead of going home and getting a reminder about how lonely he truly was in this life.

He could only remember one Christmas, that differed from all others. On that day, Odasaku invited Dazai over to his place to enjoy the food with him and the orphans. It wasn't a typical company to spend Christmas with, but for the first time, Dazai felt like he was in the right place. That night, Dazai stayed at Oda's house for a night because there was a snow storm, raging outside, so the man simply didn't let Osamu go home. When Dazai woke up, he saw a small beautifully wrapped box, standing near his bed.

Odasaku heard some muffled whimpering noises from the guest's chamber in the morning, but he didn't dare to bother. After all, he supposed that this was Dazai's first time in all his 17 years, when he received a gift from someone, who really cared about him.

Now, Dazai couldn't help but smile at those memories. It felt as if it happened 100 years ago, when in reality it happened just 7 years ago. Those memories just seemed to be too...far from him now. Everything changed drastically since those times so that now it felt as if they happened in his past life. Well, it was like this in a way. A part of Dazai died along with Odasaku, but came back to life when he met you.

"What are you thinking about?" You suddenly asked him, waking him up from his thoughts.

Dazai smiled softly at you and wrapped his hand around your shoulders, pulling you closer.

"I just remembered something." He explained "Something that happened a really long time ago."

You stayed quiet, knowing already that Dazai's past was a very painful topic for him to talk about. He either told you about it himself or he didn't want to remember it too much to not disturb the old scars. Although you were sometimes curious about his past, your love and respect to his man was much bigger, than just curiosity so you didn't ask too many questions and Dazai appreciated that a lot.

"You know, I've only celebrated Christmas once in my life." Dazai spoke again, breaking the silence "I did it with a very dear friend of mine, Odasaku. I've told you about him. On that day, I felt what family is...supposed to feel like, even if it only consisted of one person. Even though, Mori was my mentor at that time and I knew him ever since my childhood, I never felt like he cared about me even a little bit. But Odasaku managed to make me feel it even though, we knew each other for just 1 year at that time."

"Odasaku was really an amazing person..." You said quietly, hugging Dazai's arm

"He really was." He chuckled sadly, before continuing "I just wanted to say, that what I'm feeling now, while being here with you is very similar to what I felt on that Christmas night. I feel at home with you."

Dazai kissed your forehead gently, before pulling you closer to him and inhaling your scent.

Yes...he was definitely at home now.

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Merry Christmas to all of you~

I'm so happy to be back on Wattpad after such a long break😭❤️ and I have so many ideas already XD I need to manage to write them all out during my winter holidays XD