Hooligan | Dazai Osamu

I Fell In Love With You In May

"I can't believe, that my life was so much different just 2 years ago." Dazai said suddenly, surprising you

You lifted your head from his shoulder to look his in the eyes, blushing slightly at the sight in front of you: his fluffy chocolate locks trembled on the soft breeze as his hazel nut eyes looked extremely gorgeous with the contrast of bright green leaves in the background. Going to the park today was definitely a good idea.

"What do you mean?" You asked him

Dazai smiled softly, placing his hand on top of yours and stroking your palm with hugs thumb gently.

"Well~" He started, a soft smile still not leaving his lips "Today's our two years anniversary~ And now, I just remembered what my life was like before I met you~ And how much it changed~"

"Oh that~" You blushed

"Yeah~" He nodded "I still remember how we met~ I fell in love with you in May~"

A series of memories rushed through your head.

You remembered meeting him by an accident, when you came into the Agency after mistaking the address since you had just moved to Yokohama. That was when Dazai first tried to flirt with you, not knowing back then that you weren't going to become one of the girls, who would fall for his tricks easily. You were so happy, that you didn't let him know at that time that actually you fell for him rather quickly because if you showed him that he charmed you so easily, then he wouldn't have set up a goal for himself to charm you and you wouldn't have met anymore!

That was how it all started. You two were just having fun with each other as Dazai was asking you to commit a double suicide with him, what you always denied, but instead, you always accepted his proposition of taking you out. Both of you thought, that it wasn't going to last for a long time until suddenly, when you happened to be on the beach at night under the light of a million stars, something clicked inside both of you and a new chapter of your relationship started.

"An accident brought us together, an accident kept us together and an accident made us fall in love with each other..." You whispered quietly

"You are the prettiest accident, that ever happened in my life~" Dazai replied, lifting your hand up and placing a soft kiss on your knuckles

"Do you remember, what happened after that night on the beach~?" You asked

"Of course, I do~" He said "We changed. Our relationship changed. There was no more flirting between us and no more questions about suicide and etc. Somehow, you saw past the happy facade I had and after I realized, that pretending when you're around was pointless, I gave up and showed you the truth."

Sadness flashed through his gaze, which was barely seen for a stranger, but so bright for your eyes.

"That night, when I was cutting my hands again..." Dazai continued "And you just happened to come to my apartment just because the heavy rain started, when you didn't have an umbrella with you, so you were forced to wait for it to end and my place was the closest to you...I forgot to lock the door back then and after I asked you not to come in, you got worried and entered without my permission only to find me in the bathroom as I was trying to quickly put on my bandages again to not let you see my wounds...That night, I showed you the truth: I showed you the real broken man, I was, which was hiding behind the permanent happy smile..."

You squeezed his hand tighter.

"I'm glad, I saw that." You said "You know, that I always preferred seeing the real you instead of a mask, even if you were depressed, despaired, hurt or traumatized."

A smile finally appeared on his face again.

"You healed my wounds just as you healed my soul." He said "And even though there are things and people, that I will never forget about, at least, I have someone by my side who doesn't let me go back to despair, alcohol and destroying myself."

"That May really changed our lives~" You said

"I wish I could meet you earlier~" Dazai whispered quietly

You didn't really know why, but suddenly, it felt like a whole bomb of happiness and colors exploded inside of you, almost making you want to cry because of the realization about how truly lucky you were to have Dazai in your life.

This simple phrase of his screamed louder, than hundreds of books and poems about love. You caught yourself thinking again about how Dazai could possibly have a hidden talent in writing since he was so good with words, but you decided to leave this topic for later.

"I love you, Dazai~" You whispered after leaning closer to his face, almost touching his lips

"I love you too, (Y/N)~" He replied as he leaned in and gave you one of the sweetest kisses on the lips

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