Hooligan | Dazai Osamu

Wake Up, Osamu

A/N: before, commenting and asking me if it's an AU, read till the end. I didn't put the warning of an AU in the title for a reason

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"Dazai, wake up! You will be late to school!"

Lazily, the boy opened his eyes and turned on the other side on his futon. Oh, how he didn't want to get up today. He went to sleep very late yesterday because he was preparing for the maths test and now, he was completely exhausted. But school was school and he couldn't help it. After all, he was a senior and this year, he was going to have final exams and the entrance exams to the university so he needed to have good grades.

Sighing, Osamu finally sat up and rubbed his eyes. He just needed to survive 8 hours of school, after all. Plus, his friend Odasaku was going to be there so he would maybe brighten his mood. And if not, Dazai could always relax after school by eating a fresh watermelon, that his mom brought yesterday, or read a book, before going back to studying.

Suddenly, the image changed.

He was no longer in his bedroom, but now, he was already dressed in his school uniform, with his bag on the back, and he was waving to his parents, whose silhouettes were too blurry to see them, nor that he had any time to. He was late to school already so he had to hurry.

He ran out of their house, that was a perfectly normal, cozy one, and hoped on his bike, hoping, that he'll manage to reach school in 20 minutes.

The weather was perfect today. The sun has already risen and was now shining high in the skies. There weren't even any clouds, that could hide it, but nevertheless, it still wasn't too hot like it could have been. However, Dazai supposed that it was going to get hotter by midday because it was the end of May, after all. Luckily, he didn't have any bandages, that he had in the real life so he wouldn't have to suffer from the heat as much as he really did.

Just for today, Dazai didn't have to worry about his past or his fear, which were always following him, no matter where he went. Today, he was only a normal teenager, whose only worries were about passing the test and choosing the right college to attend. He could just enjoy the messy temp of life and let it flow without feeling any pressure or anxiety, that would be threatening to eat him alive.

The image changed again.

This time, he was in the corridor after just handing in the very hard test by the strict Kunikida-sensei, that he was surely going to fail. He was lying with his head on the desk, having no energy to lift it up.

"Dazai, don't brood over it." His friend, Atsushi, said "It's just a test. You know, that Kunikida-sensei is very strict and he always gives us tests, that almost no one can pass."

"Still. I was preparing for it, yet it wasn't enough." Dazai replied, sighing

"Dazai, Atsushi is right. It's not a reason to be sad so much." Odasaku agreed "You know, that test is such a small thing, compared to some really bad things. Think about it: you're healthy, you don't struggle with any disorders, you have a family, your friends and your relatives are all safe and sound. Just this one test isn't even worth your nerves."

"I guess, you're right as always." Dazai sighed, finally lifting his head up "I will just study harder, but I won't grieve about it too much. I could have worse problems in my life, but I'm lucky~"

"That's a good spirit!" Atsushi smiled "Failing a test is not as bad as...let me think...oh I know! It's not as bad as being a criminal or being traumatized by something!"

"Indeed, it's not~" Dazai replied "Alright, enough about it~ Let's talk about something el-"

He was about to finish, if not the strange voice, that he heard. It didn't belong to Odasaku, nor to Atsushi and it just kept repeating "wake up". What a strange voice...

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"Dazai, wake up!" You exclaimed, shaking your loved one by his shoulders gently

Finally, Dazai opened his eyes, looking at you as he was trying to comprehend what has happened so that your face looked so worried.

"(Y/N)...?" He said in a husky voice, still being half asleep "What's wrong?"

"You were crying in your sleep..." You explained, hugging him tightly "I thought, that you were having a nightmare and I didn't want you to suffer from that."

"Oh, love, it wasn't really a nightmare." He answered, hugging you back, before pressing a soft kiss to your forehead "It was just a dream, where...I was normal. I was just a student with friends and family. And I didn't even have any bandages. It was just...truly nice..."

"Dazai..." You gasped as your eyes widened because of the realization, that hit you

You were about to say something, when you noticed that he was already back in his thoughts and knowing, that he preferred silent in such moments, you just hugged him tighter, resting your head on his chest. He simply needed to think about this dream and, maybe, let himself imagine this perfect life a little more.

Indeed, it would have been nice to be normal. It would be nice to have friends and family. It would be nice to not have this burden of horrible memories and fears on his back. It would nice to be an ordinary teenager and worry about your grades and strict teachers.

If only he was born in a different place and time, none of all these things, that he's been through, would have happen.

And although, he was grateful to life for giving him you and, at least, letting him be happy now, a part of him, was still craving to have the ability to change the past and erase all his traumas and fears.

A soft brush of your thumb against the skin on his chest woke him up from his thoughts. You didn't intend to do that for you simply started to draw circles on his skin, but Dazai was happy, that it happened.

He dreamt too much. Now, it was time to go back to reality.

"I love you." Dazai whispered quietly as these were the only words that mattered in that moment "And I promise, that if I didn't have the past, I dreamt about, I'll make sure that our kids will have it."

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Hope, you liked it^^ I just suddenly thought what would be like if Dazai was just a normal guy and then, I got an idea of this one shot. I hope it didn't turn out weird XD