India: The Passing Day

Chapter 17: No reason to Stay

"I can't believe you are really leaving," cyn said walking her friend maureen and ringo to their car.
Well we are, richie wants to see the children she said, ringo went to put the bags to the car.

"Well im glad you get to see them, i miss julian. I've been writing him letters and he sends me back drawings" cyn said missing he son terribly.

Mo chuckled, "when are you guys coming home then I know the lads said in another couple of weeks but by the looks of it george might be here forever, poor pattie," maureen said chuckling.

"I dont know, although i might be in london sooner." Cyn said.

"What do you mean," mo said

"Nothing," cyn said.

Ringo came back, "alright love we are ready to go," he said.

"Alright then" mo said.

"We will see you and john soon then cyn" ringo said giving her a kiss on the cheek.

"Ya," cyn said smiling back at him.

"I can't believe you are leaving me," cyn said.

"You will be fine," maureen said, just try not to get eaten alive with these bloody mosquitos.

Cyn laughed "ok" she said hugging her friend.

"Bye then" mo said getting into the car. Cyn waved them off.

She would miss her friend but she new that meditation wasn't really for the starkeys.

Meditation definitely helped cyn though.

She finally was able to reach that feeling of devotion and total concentration, still sending riya that love.

And it finally gave cyn the clarity she really needed, she was finally able to make her decision. She would be leaving india and getting a divorce.

She had booked her flight home and was ready to move on, she knew her marriage was over now.

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Sitting with jane at dinner cyn decided to tell her of her plan, she had been silent about it til now but she knew jane could keep her secret, and cyn couldn't hold it in any longer, it was like she had this weight on her shoulders. She finally could feel a relief in telling jane.

"Your leaving"  jane exclaimed.

"Shhh jane," cyn said. "Nobody but you knows and im trying to not make it so obvious."

"What happened is julian ok?" Jane asked

"He is fine, my marriage is over. I have no reason to be here anymore. Meditation has done its job, it opened me up to being more confident, I know now that I have to reclaim myself like you said." Cyn said.

"Well im proud of you, jane said smiling. But i am sad that you and john cant work it out, she said sympathetically. Your john and cyn, it just makes sense you know, paul always said he aspired to have a relationship like you guys." Jane said.

"Well i guess it was a myth cyn said jokingly, john is in love with someone else, and there is nothing i could have done to stop it, ive accepted it now im just looking out for myself, and especially my son." Cyn said.

Jane nodded approvingly.

Suddenly cyn saw tom approaching she and jane.

"So lennon what is so urgent you needed to take me out of my meditation." Tom said jokingly

Tom noticed jane, "hello he said, im tom" shaking he hand she looked up at him with a smile.

"Jane asher" she responded.

"Oh mccartneys girl." Tom said.

"And your the bloke cyns been talking to all this time." Jane said.

"Giving her the best advice, she is like my student" he responded jokingly.

Jane laughed.

"Well lennon what is your big news, it's killing me not knowing." Tom asked.

"Tom, im leaving india." Cyn said.

"The mosquitos got to you that bad," tom responded.

"Seriously, im leaving tommorow actually." Cyn said.

"Lennon," tom said astounded, "your serious."

"Yes i really am." Cyn said. "My marriage is over and besides the amazing friends ive made here i have no other reason to stay."

"Good for you he responded. I told you you would find that clarity." Tom said.

Jane smiled at both of them, "well i'm certainly going to miss you" jane said. "Looks like it will just be me and pattie since mo left also. "And paul," jane said rather annoyed.

"Do all the beatle women have problems with their relationships?" Tom asked sarcastically.

Both answering cyn said no, and jane said yes.

They looked at each other and laughed.

"So tomorrow your leaving then?" Tom asked, are you telling mr. lennon? tom asked.

"No, i doubt he would even notice i'm gone." She replied.

"Sorry about that lennon," tom said.

Cyn wouldn't normally do this sort of thing but she knew that things were not normal anymore. Her life had never really been normal. Her marriage was anything but normal.

Leaving India would be the first step in making things right.