When We Realize (A Sheo Fanfic)

Chapter Ten

*Shailene’s POV*

The day after Theo and I kissed we didn’t see each other at all. We didn’t have to go to set, and there was no other reason for us to see one another. Despite that, I still couldn’t stop smiling. I’m quite the feminist, so I’ve always told myself that you don’t need a man in your life to pick up the pieces, but it feels that way this time. Things were not bad before Theo James said he liked me as well, but now my life doesn’t feel like there is something missing.

I meant what I said when I told him that we would have to hide our relationship. I have always hated media knowing about my personal relationships, and I know this time I will hate it even more. If they found out, they would make up lies, and people would be all over us… Not to mention if it doesn’t work out. I just really know that this is the only way that I can do this, is if it’s just our close family and friends who know.

 I ignored my feelings for him for too long, and my soul feels light now. I can’t ignore my happiness anymore, and I don’t know why I did to begin with. You simply cannot know what will make others happy, but you can always know for yourself. I am happy at this moment in my life, so I will sacralize it and cherish it.

That day I was very pro-active. I had a long conversation with my mother and a few friends, baked random assortments of pumpkin treats, blog surfed, got lunch with Ansel, and even started researching donation websites. I have a lot more money than I know what to do with, or that I will ever need, so once in a while I like to find an organization that I really feel will put my money to use in a beautiful way. I do save quite a bit of it though, for my children one day, and also for my family and my younger brothers college expenses.

The next day I woke up smiling yet again, singing ‘Good morning, GOOD MORNING’ once again, and I truly felt energized and ready for another wonderful day in this world. We have a lot of scene’s to shoot today, and I can’t help but be slightly nervous about what it will be like to see Theo. We can’t act any different, and he might not have even been able to break things off with Ruth yet. My heart truly goes out to him, because I understand how hard it will be for him to leave someone after four years. I hope he is making the right decision for himself, but he said he was, and I trust him.

After wardrobe, hair, and makeup, I was brought out to where we would be shooting a very popular scene. Rob, the scriptwriters, and a few others were discussing with me how everybody is apparently looking forward to the scene where Tris accidentally gets too high of a dosage of peace serum while in the Amity faction.

“I have no doubt this scene is going to be perfect,” Rob said. “Because you are naturally an immensely positive person, so just channel your inner peace into it.”

I heard a laugh behind me, and turned around to see Theo all dressed and ready. “Shailene meets Tris. This is going to be good.”

I narrowed my eyes jokingly and he smiled at me. I wanted to stare at him longer, but I turned away. He, on the other hand kept staring. He always does that though, so I don’t think anyone will think anything of it if he does. “Everyone is in love with this scene, and they would have killed us if we didn’t put it in,” Rob said, walking with us to the set.

“How come?” Theo asked.

“Well, it’s like a drunken/high Tris, which is funny because usually Tris is so blunt and mature, even for a sixteen year old. Plus it’s cute how she goes up to Four and he is all confused.”

We spend about thirty minutes shooting the scene where I am injected with the peace serum from the Amity faction, and then we move onto the set where I will run and meet Four in an inside orchard.

“ACTION,”

I put a goofy smile onto my face and run/skip/stumble across the orchard barefoot. The grass actually feels quite nice on my feet. “Four?” I say. “Four where are you?” There are some extra’s in the scene, lulling around, but I let my eyes search for Theo.

“Tris?”  I hear, and I see him behind the tree.

I stumble into his arms, and he looks confused. I press my body close to his and lift up my head to kiss him.

“What did they-“ He tries to say, but I press my lips to his. He pulls back quickly, still confused.

“That was lame,” I say in a light feathery voice. “Okay, no it wasn’t but…” I try to kiss him again but he puts a finger over my mouth.

“Tris? What did they do to you? You’re acting like a lunatic.”

“That’s not very nice. They helped me. And now I just really wanna kiss you, so if you would just relax…”

“I’m not going to kiss you, I’m going to figure out what’s going on.” He says.

I pout for a moment and then suddenly smile. “That’s why you like me! Because you’re not very nice either! It all makes sense!”

“Come on, let’s go see Johanna,”

“I like you, too.”

“That’s encouraging,” He says flatly. “Oh for God’s sake I’ll just carry you.”

He swings me into his arms and I let a giggle escape my lips. I wrap an arm around his neck and ignore his annoyed expression, and as he starts walking I kick my legs in the air.

“AND CUT,”

He puts me back on my feet and we start laughing. “That was great,” Rob says, coming up and looking at us. “We need to do it a couple more times though.”

After we do that for a while longer, we discuss the next scene. We’ve jumped to a scene where they are already in the Candor faction, and it is much more intense. Four and Tris are put under a truth serum, where they are asked questions. Tris finally admits out loud that she shot her friend Will out of necessity during the simulation in Divergent. It’s a pretty serious scene, since the memory has been haunting her, and she has been hiding it from Four.

We did a lot of good shooting that day. Later that night when Miles, me, and Theo are walking back to our apartments, Miles asks us if we want to get dinner.

“I can’t,” Theo says. Maybe he still needs time to think about what to say to Ruth.

Miles turns to me, smiling. “Shai?”

I’m not really in the mood for going out to dinner, as much as I love Miles to death. “Can we just order something?”

“Yeah! Sure. We could order food and eat it in the pool room, that would be fun!”

I smiled. “Yeah, okay.”

I glanced at Theo who was staring off into space. Before I could convince myself that it was too obvious, I wrapped my arms around him. He hugged me back, and I suppressed a sigh. I love when he holds me, and I don’t think Miles will comment, because I hug everybody.

“Ready Shai?” Miles asks.

“I’m ready, sista.”

Theo opens his door with a key. “See you guys later.”

I watch his door shut and then I turn to follow Miles to his room.