When We Realize (A Sheo Fanfic)

Chapter Four

*Theo's POV*

"Well are you going to give me a hug?" Ruth asked, looking somewhat upset.

"Yes," I said walking over and hugging her. "I'm sorry."

She took my face in between her hands and kissed me once. "I missed you,"

"I missed you too,"

She looked at me silently for a moment. "Why was she in your shirt without a bra?"

"She wasn't wearing a bra?"

I actually hadn't noticed. I know that she has some qualm about the effects bra's can have on breasts, but I didn't even realize she wasn't wearing one, that's actually quite funny. I started to laugh but then I saw the look on Ruth's face.

"Calm down, Ruth. Miles, Shai, and I went swimming in the pool an hour ago and she left her shirt there, so I gave her one. No big deal."

"Fine,"

"Don't be mad," I said.

"I'm not,"

"You look mad,"

"I'm not, Theo. Just drop it."

I looked away from her, scratching the back of my head. "Okay, well, you can go put your stuff in my room I guess. I need to finish unpacking."

After I finished, Ruth made me sit down and write down my schedule for the rest of the week down, so she could make plans revolving around my filming. After, I read over my lines on the couch and she sat next to me, silently working on her laptop.

For some reason I can't shake the feeling that something is wrong. Ruth isn't mad at me, so why does my heart feel heavy, and my mind feels foggy, like something bad is about to happen? There should be no reason. I shook my head once, and continued to look at my lines.

*Shailene's POV*

After I was in my Tris clothes and my hair and makeup was done, I walked into the room that I would be meeting with the directors to discuss the scenes we are shooting tonight. I saw Rob, the new director of Insurgent, Neil, the part time director of this movie and the full director of Divergent, and Theo, all sitting at a table.

"Aloha!" I said, smiling at them.

"Well if it isn't Tris Prior, in the flesh." Neil said.

This is the first scene we will shoot for Insurgent. I have no clue why they shoot everything in the order that they do, but I know the reasons all revolve around availability of locations, and everything is always preplanned.

"So, the first scene we will be shooting doesn't seem too hard. I know you guys have a feel for your characters, so I don't really need to hear you read your lines, I know you will do fine. Shailene, we are going to get a few shots of you waking up in bed from a nightmare in an Amity bed, and from there you walk to Tobias's room and you guys have a conversation. I just need to know if there are any questions?" Rob asked.

Theo shook his head. "No I don't think so."

"Me neither,"

"Okay, let's go then."

I smiled. "Tris and Four are back in action!" I said as we stood up, laughing and nudging Theo in the arm. He nudged me back.

I walked to the set where I (Tris) would be waking up from my bad dream. I listened to some of the people who told me where to look and where to walk. When I knew what I was doing, I took off my sweatpants, and handed them to someone. Tris is wearing only a big shirt and underpants in this scene. I climb into the bed and close my eyes.

"ACTION,"

I flutter my eyelids, and somehow manage to make tears escape from them. People always ask me how I can cry on cue, but it's not really a physical thing... It's mental. I think of the pain that I have ever experienced at different times in my life and I draw it all to this moment and give it to Tris.

I let a sob escape me, and press my head to the pillow before sitting up. I pull back the covers and walk toward the door like I'm supposed to, my face scrunched in anguish from the "bad dream".

"Okay, good job Shailene." Rob said. "That was really good. We're going to get that a few more times from a few different angles, so keep doing what you're doing."

I nodded, wiping the tears from my face to start again. I looked off of the set and saw Theo standing there, his arms crossed, and he winks at me. I make a shaka sign with my hands to him, and then walked back to the bed.

We do that a few more times until they were sure that they got what they needed, then we walked to a different set, but Theo got into his own bed in the Amity faction this time. Someone called action and I walked in, letting the tears running down my face.

"C'mere," Theo (Four) said, sounding sleepy.

I walked over to his bed and he scooted over for me to lie down next to him.

"Bad dream?" He says.

I nod.

"What happened?"

I shake my head, like I am supposed to. His thumb moves up to stroke my cheek, and we stare into each other's eyes, his sleepy, and mine full of tears. Theo has... perfect eyes. I shouldn't be thinking that right now, when I am supposed to be acting, but I can't help it. Why is this happening again?

"We're all right you know. You and me. Okay?"

I nod again.

"Nothing else is alright," He whispers close to my face. "But we are."

Then we are kissing. My heart starts to beat, and I try to push out the thoughts that always come when we film things like this. I try so hard to ignore them, but it has been so long... too long, since we have kissed, and his lips feel so good. What is wrong with me? This isn't Theo and Shailene, this is Four and Tris. Theo doesn't want to kiss me like this, he has a beautiful girlfriend whom he can enjoy kissing.

His mouth continues to move against mine as his (Four's) hand moves from my hair down to my hip, where he then smoothly slides his hand up my side, under my shirt. He hand feels so warm against my skin, and a faint sigh escapes me. His hand moves to my lower back, and presses me closer. I have to work to remember that this isn't real; that it is all preplanned and that there are currently camera's right above us.

I clutch at his shirt as he moves to kiss my neck, and start to cry again. He pulls back to look at me. "Sorry," I say. "I don't mean to be such a mess."

"I am so sorry about your parents Tris. It shouldn't have happened, and anyone that tells you its okay is a liar."

I let another sob escape me.

"Sleep," He says. "I'll fight off the bad dreams."

"With what?"

"With my bare hands, obviously."

I press myself closer to him, and pretend to fall asleep. I enjoy the smell of him, the same scent that I was engulfed with when I put on his shirt earlier. My heart is now slamming against my chest, and I hope he doesn't feel it.

"I love you, Tris." He says, and I wonder why it is so easy for me to pretend that I don't completely wish he was saying my name, instead of Tris's.

Everyone off set starts clapping and I pull away from him and start laughing. I stand up and do a fake bow.

"Woo! You were right Shai, Tris and Four are back in action!" Neil yelled excitingly.

"That was insane guys!" Rob says. "We'll probably use that take, because it was perfect, but you guys need to do it a couple more times, because we need more angles."

I nod, and glance over at Theo. He is smiling at me, with his hands in his pockets. I bite my bottom lip. How can I do this a few more times? My heart was pounding so hard the first time... Why am I feeling like this? It's so wrong of me. We are just friends. I thought that maybe things would change, since it has been a while, but the second his lips touched mine, it all came back again. I would ask myself 'what I am I going to do?' but the answer is quite simple. I have to ignore it obviously.