When you feel like everything is falling apart you try to hide how you feel and make others believe that you're okay when you aren't. You put on this lie out for everyone to see and believe but, it all just a lie and sometimes a shadow of yourself. You make everything seem like it's not, you just feel like breaking down and never going anywhere or doing anything anymore. You just don't have it in you to feel things that you should and can't do the things that you used to before everything happened.
Many things happen in your life you can't help but, sometimes thinking that life can be full of things that aren’t what you expect and they can bring you down and that it can be really hard to keep pace with life. People say things happen for a reason, then what reason can it be for how life is for you now when you can’t take it anymore because things just keep getting worse when you just wish everything can stop. It seems like you are invisible that nobody cares or sees you and when they do see they don’t say anything and keep quiet. They might not say anything out of fear of what might happen once they say something. But, know sometimes when you do say something it could help with knowing people actually see you and you aren’t invisible. Sometimes when you keep things inside they feel like they are going to explode inside you. All your thoughts that you don’t say revolve inside your mind and keep revolving until you end up with a major headache because you didn’t or couldn’t say what you were thinking and so many scenarios play inside your mind if you just said something.
You feel like everything is slowly falling apart, fading slowly. You start feelings at the same time you become numb from all of it. You slowly feeling each part that breaks deep within yourself. You feel your mind becoming darker every second of the day, it’s eating you up inside out. People try hurting your skin but, that doesn’t hurt as much in comparison of what you feel inside even though sometimes your numb. It fades for some moments and those are the moments you most dread, because then your thoughts that where already dark become even darker if possible. You can’t take it anymore you just want all it gone because those thoughts just swarm your head and create a headache so bad that you feel like your head is going to explode. Even though they come everyday they just get so bad that you can’t seem to take anymore of all the pain inside.
