Screams and shouts that’s all you hear. You can’t avoid it when it’s happening in your own home. Their voices get trapped into your mind and can’t undo hearing their conversation based on things going on. Their words seem to circle your mind again and again it seems like an endless cycle, a never ending cycle that tortures you as if it were something that can control you. Sometimes it seems like it can because you would do anything to keep them out of your mind. Anything to keep what you already have enough of at home to stay there sometimes you wish the voices in your memory to go away forever but, they wouldn’t last because then another will take its place. Another takes its place and when that one goes away it gets replaced, and that happens again and again. Into an never ending cycle…
It happened again, this time I actually tried to get in between it but as usual they ignored me as if I weren’t there. She told me to shut up and let the others argue but I’ve already heard the argument for long enough it happens almost everyday so I shouldn’t be surprised that it happens but, I can’t avoid how I feel about it happening. No matter how much it happens, even though I’m used to it already which is bad because it isn’t healthy, but how can I avoid it when it happens everyday and in my own home. People say I sometimes act too mature for my age well experiences made me like this because they slowly showed me what most of the world is like. I know that not every home is like this but, my home showed me part of the real world. I interfered as much as I could for someone my age, I started just by telling the oldest one in the actual argument to stop because that how she is just keeps going if you do so best if you just stay quiet. Then, later on I had to actually take him to his room to try and end the argument between him and her even though they had already taken him to is room but, he just came out of it. I did it in hopes of his seeing as I’m the smallest sibling that he would do it for me and stay in his room, yet he didn’t he went back. Eventually, things calmed down with her talking with someone on the phone to calm her down. But, how much more can this can I take before I fully break, every one breaks eventually...
