No matter what I do sometimes things just don't seem to get better. I lose focus easily and can't always concentrate on what I'm supposed to do. Then I get home and all I sometimes hear is the yelling. I try to make it stop but, they never listen. I'm invisible to my own damn family and they have told me. So even if I do interfere all I get is yelled at or even hit. So, it doesn't matter what I do 'cause it won't matter. Not to them at least.
No matter what I do I can't seem to satisfy you. You always demand for more or basically say its not good enough. Nobody can see the pain I'm in the hurt even though I can't feel the pain anymore, I know that there's something better besides what I feel, what I've felt for years... Some say if it hurts you, you should talk about it, you should tell someone. But how can you tell someone it hurts if nobody seems to listen... Like it doesn't matter... Like if i'm invisible... Telling people how I feel has never been my strongest thing 'cause my feelings don't matter.... That's what people have shown me, that my feelings don't matter and therefore I don't matter...
"My feelings...? You don't need to worry about those, nobody else ever did."
