It hurts, both physically and emotionally not be near you. But unfortunately for me you already have someone you like, therefore I can't do anything about how I feel because then I might end up hurting you, you seem so happy yet, I can't help feeling down. Little do you know that sometimes all I need if for you to be around to cheer me up when I'm down. That when you're there and you cheer me up it's all that's in my mind because you make me forget everything that everything that goes around me. You always know the right things to say to me on the right occasions. It's like you know what's going on but at the same time you're just in the dark about what goes on. I know it's selfish but it hurts to see you be around others that make you happy knowing that I can't make you happy like they do, I can't help but feel this way even though it's selfish. I know you're not aware of any of this because I'm afraid that this will ruin our friendship that we have, and that it might not be the same when you find out how I feel. We'll go to different places and we might not get to see each other afterwards, so it seems unreasonable to want another type of relationship with you. So, it seems like I'll just have to keep these feelings hidden. Or at least tell you and hope for the best outcome. You can't always have want you want in life after all...
