I may not be mature in age but, I seem to be in mind. I notice things around me even if you don't want me to find out I will eventually. If it's seconds, minutes, hours, months or even years. The truth eventually comes out, I'm not an obvious child who know nothing. I see what happens, I see what you feel, I see the emotion that clouds your eyes and face. I see and hear things you don't want me to. The fact that you don't seem to notice makes things easier due to the fact that I don't know how I would be able to handle you asking me questions about how I feel. I know how to deal with my emotions and how to mask how I feel, but when it comes to you asking me about them I just can't seem to process what you want me to do. So, I keep quiet so you don't get hurt from what I say even if i end up getting hurt. I have seen all that you have suffered and I don't want to be one of the reasons why.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I have disappointed you. I'm sorry I am not enough. I'm sorry I am not able to please you. I'm sorry that i cause so many problems for you. I'm sorry that i use other peoples stuff and cause many problems. I'm sorry that what i do doesn't satisfy you or, make you notice that I do try. Even though I suck at it sometimes, but I know how much you've suffered and I don't' want to be one of the reasons why you do. I just want to make you proud even though that could crumble in an instant. I try to keep what I feel away from you not only to keep you from being hurt from it but so, that you don't send me away...
