Why does life have to be like this. I'm always sad, anxious or stressed! The stress right now is literally taking over me and making me more depressed and anxious and I honestly don't know how much longer I can take it! It's just too hard! Everything is too hard! I just want to fucking die. Like if I had a gun I would literally shoot myself but since I live in Australia that isn't fucking possible unfortunately! Also I heard the other day that this guy travelled to the other side of the world to get euthanasia because he was really old and didn't want to live and I'm so jealous of him. Like I'm sure he's had it worse but people say school is meant to be the best years of your life! I find that really hard to believe with what's going on in my life! With everything that's going on I have ests next week which is like exams for year 12 general students and although I'm not in ATAR it's still hard. I literally just wanna leave. Also my English teacher gave me a fucking 0 because I didn't complete one section out of four for an assignment thing which was Interview comprehensions so I did 3 Interview comprehensions and I didn't complete the last one so he gave me fucking zero and I'm so angry because y friend completed one question for that interview and somehow she still got marks like seriously she did one more question than me and she got marked and passed. I'm just so over life. The only thing keeping me going is my future with my friends. We have sort of planned our life once we finished high school which I think won't happen because I'm so poor and have a shit job so I can't earn much money. Basically me and Leanne are planning to go travelling in Singapore at the start of next year and then America in the middle and then England at the end of the year and when we go there we will take Chloe home with us and we are going to try and get an apartment!
Anyway so I'm sitting here just done some maths that I fucked up and can't do right like always and I really need to finish this last interview which will help me get a better mark than fucking zero but I really can't be bothered I just wanna go to bed and cry.
Also on a positive note I'm loving Shane Dawson at the moment and I am living for all of his series and can't wait for the 50 minute part 4/7 of the series to come out tomorrow. Also I had an audition for a grease play yesterday and I found out today that I got in so I'm excited about that because I'll be dancing and dancing really helps me forget everything, so that's alright, but I'm still over life and I'd rather die than be alive!❤️😭
Stay alive everybody | - /
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Dealing with life!
AléatoireThis is a story about me and how i have dealt with life so far, in the seventeen years I have lived. WARNING: There will be swearing in this story but i will try to make it as minimal as possible.
