Dealing with life!

Embarassing

So today was so so embarrassing, probably one of the most embarrassing moments yet.

So the day started off fine, school was good and I was looking forward to after school because I was getting my hair done.
So I got to the hairdresser at around 5pm which was the time of my appointment and I was nervous because my mum went there the last week and saw someone from my primary school there. Anyway, I got there and we discussed what I was getting done and then they started. They first parted my hair and sectioned off the bits they were doing. Then the guy from primary school came over to me and started helping the other lady and because he was a trainee he had to get shown what to do. Anyways, so they continued sectioning off my hair and that's when it all went to shit. The lady found a nit (head lice) in my hair. I was so embarrassed and straight away turned red. She showed my mum and my mum was pissed because I've had a problem with lice before. I used to get it like twice or even more in a year in primary school and then last year I got it again, and now it's happening AGAIN. I'm so annoyed because I hadn't seen this guy since primary school and he found out I had nits. I wanted to just crawl up into a ball and cry. Then I had to get my head washed and the lady started massaging my hair. While it felt good, I was stressing out about her seeing the nits. She didn't say anything but she probably saw them. The rest of the hairdressing part I was embarrassed but I pretended like I forgot about it, but I just couldn't stop thinking about it.
I then told my friends about it and said at least they are attracted to me because they cling onto clean hair, but then they started saying how they cling onto dirty hair too which made me feel worse.
After the appointment it was around 8:00 and I like it. I thought it didn't look too bad. I got put in balayage blonde ends but as I have orange/red hair it doesn't show up as well which is what happened last time I had it done. Anyway, so I showed my friends and I knew what I expected of my hair and they said that you couldn't see the colour at all when I could and said the curls are straight at the top and it was pissing them off they said. I started getting really upset after that and almost started crying, but I didn't.
I then realised that I had school and work tomorrow and I had to do treatment so I thought that it would be a good excuse to get off work. I asked mum to call in sick for me but then realised I had to fill in a form to swap my shift Sunday and they would know I'm not sick if I just went in to fill out the form. The form has to be filled out 2 days before so I wouldn't be able to sign it any other day. I kept thinking I should just call in sick and sign it Saturday but every time I would remember that it has to be 2 days before the shift. So it turns out after trying to figure out what to do, I have to go to school and work tomorrow even though my head will be really itchy which doesn't really help anyone.
So this next thing I'm about to explain is a very hard thing for me to write as it includes my depression. So when I was younger it actually not that long ago, like last year, I used to be always hungry. Like eating non stop, snacking all the time and eating as soon as I finish work, but now it's all different. I start to feel sick if I eat breakfast in the morning, I feel sick during the day, and I feel sick at night. During the day I will try and eat but I just don't feel up to it. Most of the time I can't be bothered to get the food that's why I don't eat. I'm too lazy. I've gotten lazier and lazier every day. I know that I need to eat, but I sometimes even get too scared that I'm gonna feel sick after I eat so I just don't. I know that's bad, I try, I really do and sometime I do eat my little snacks I get but I always tend to feel sick after eating anything. I have been thinking about this for a while and I just keep thinking of my depression and how it usually makes you feel tired, exhausted and lazy. The passed three nights I haven't eaten dinner. So it's Thursday now, but on Tuesday and Wednesday, my mum had made a stew that I don't think looked very good as I am very fussy, but that's been my whole life, anyway, so I didn't have stew and I could even be bothered to get up and get something to eat. On Tuesday, I was actually quite hungry, but I just couldn't be bothered to look for something to eat. Last night I just wasn't hungry at all so I
Just didn't eat but tonight it was different. Tonight I felt so down with what happened with the hairdressers and the work situation that I couldn't be bothered to make it. We were having tacos which is like one of my favourites because I love to have heaps of mayo on the mince and now that I'm describing it, it sound so yum but I still just can't be bothered to have anything. I was lazy before, but I wasn't lazy enough to get food because I would always find time to eat food but now that I am becoming more depressed which is causing tiredness and sleepiness, I just can't even be bothered any more. I also start feeling too tired to even talk to me friends. Today my bestest friend ever rang while I was in the hairdressers so I told her I was getting my hair done and she said she would call back or I would call her back but I just haven't. It is now 11:30 and I'm hungry and It's too late to call her.
I have also been falling to sleep really late, lately, like at 12 or 1 or even 2am and it's really bad because I need around 6 or 7 hours to not feel tired the next day because if I have too much sleep I will also feel tired. So if i fall asleep at like 1 then I will get around 5 hours sleep which isn't good. For some reason that makes me stay up later the next day but then last night I was so exhausted from work and 4 hours of sport and no sleep that I feel asleep really early for me which was 11pm. I rarely ever fall asleep in the pm's so I got more sleep and I felt so tired when I had to get up this morning. I am feeling really heavy eyes right now and feel like I need to go to bed so I might end it here. TBH I'm probably not gonna go to sleep but I need to end this story. That's really all that happened today anyway so I've finished writing for today.

If anyone knows anything to help me stop feeling sick after I eat, a helping comment would be appreciated! Thnx!