Today has been shit. I've been feeling so bad about all the shit I caused and I just don't wanna live because everyone hates me, so all of that has caused me to be in a really bad state that I got up at 1:20pm because I was so exhausted from always feeling like this. Then I just sat on my phone for hours looking at all he mistakes I had created the night before. I had to do it. I deserve it and I'm sick of always feeling guilty for everything I do because I'm just a fuck up and somehow create drama with my life. Then I got forced out of bed at like 3:30 because I had to take my mum to get her car serviced and bring her back, then I had to take my sister to work. During those rides I put my depressing music on in the car causing me to feel like ever more shit, so when I got home I just went back to bed on my iPad and that's all I've been doing all day and it's now 7:30pm and I just decided to wash off all the blood from my leg, so I took a shower. The whole day was a blur so I didn't even think about food and now I'm shaking so much that I'm about to faint when I walk because I haven't eaten in around 12 hours. So now I might eat because I'm actually starving but I won't eat too much that it'll make me fatter.
Anyway, that's all for today. I'm gonna go and I'll probably update soon about another depressive state knowing myself.🙄🙄🔫👍🏻
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Dealing with life!
RandomThis is a story about me and how i have dealt with life so far, in the seventeen years I have lived. WARNING: There will be swearing in this story but i will try to make it as minimal as possible.
