Safe wings

Chapter 9

(a/N PLEASE DO NOT DO SELF HARM! THIS IS JUST A BOOK AND SELF HARM SHOULD NOT BE PRACTICED BECAUSE ONCE YOU START YOU CANT STOP! SO STOP BEFORE YOU START! THERES ALWAYS HELP!)

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Soon Matt and Josh come riding out near me.

"Hey let's go! Movie night!" Matt says. I nod and jump onto Veto.

We ride silently to the house.

When we get home we eat lots of pizza and then go up to my room to watch movies.

We sit on the couch and I snuggle next to Matt, all the worries of the day fading away. Josh puts in a war movie and I lay my head on Matt's shoulder.

He kisses my forehead.

After a while he runs his hand down arm and to my hand.

He feels the cut and says "what happened?"

"Nothing I fell off of Veto"

"No you didn't!"

"Matt please!"

"YOU CUT YOURSELF!" he says.

"Matt!"

"Stop! why would you ever cut yourself?! please promise me you won't ever do it again! Please? I can't let you get hurt it breaks my heart please stop hurting yourself." he says.

"Matt I won't hurt myself again please quit yelling." I say.

"I'm sorry but I'm so concerned why would you do that?"

"Because no one loves me because I'm unwanted... She gave me up! He abused me! They hate me! I'm alone!" I sob. Suddenly two sets of arms wrap around me and I cry.

"We love you." they both say. Josh and Matt hug me.

"I'm sorry for cutting I couldn't help it I wasn't thinking clearly."

"Shhh it's okay." they say.

"Promise?"

"Yes."

"I'll never do it again I swear it's just they never wanted me."

"Yes they did, mom always talked about how she wanted to come back for you but dad threatened to kill her."

"She could have taken me with her!" I sob.

"Please stop beating yourself up." Matt whispers in my ear, his lips brushing against it.

I just relax and then the boys go back to sitting down.

After a while I yawn.

"Are you tired?" Matt asks.

"Nope!" I laugh. Then I lay my feet and legs up my knees on Josh's lap and then my shoulders up to my head on Matt's lap. They both laugh and then Matt leans down and kisses me.

He plays with my hair while we watch the next movie.

Then Matt draws small shapes on my back with his fingers and I drift to sleep.

The next morning I wake up with Matt's arm around my torso and Josh laying over the side of the couch. Matt has his head on the arm of the couch and his body is twisted at an odd angle.

I get an idea and I run out of the room. I grab an air horn and blast it in their faces.

"wake up boys!" I yell.

"Darn it I will kill you" josh says.

Matt tenses and says "who died" I crack up and then walk to the couch. "good morning." I say. I kiss his cheek and then he wraps his arms around me and says, "I'm awake I'm awake."

Josh chuckles.

"Oh hey, I have a surprise for you. It's arriving today."

"Aww thanks!" I say.