If I See You Again

Chapter 5 Ditched

Luisa's Pov

Nagising ako galing sa isang masamang panaginip. Itinakwil ako ni Mommy dahil nalaman niyang nabuntis ako ng kung sinong lalaki. Nasapo ko ang aking noo sa pag-iisip then I felt something weighing on my tummy so I looked down to see what it is.

My eyes grow extremely big when I saw an arm snaked around me. 'What the...!' I slowly traced the hand and to my added horror, sleeping peacefully next to me is Lance, the guy who out of nowhere dragged me here, mistaken me as a prostitute.

'Oh my! I gave in to him! Anong pagkakaiba ko sa prostitute?' kastigo ko sa sarili. I just gave him everything, when I just met him last night.

'Luisa ano bang pumasok sa kukote mo at hinayaan mo itong mangyari?' naku naman talaga. Pero ano pang magagawa ko? Nangyari na. I tried to reminisce everything. Ginusto ko iyon, he asked me and I obliged. I can't make him be solely responsible. I did this to myself. And so, I made a decision right away. I will disappear from his life. This should have never happened if I didn't give in. What if... What if... Oh God! Nasapo ko ang aking mukha sa isiping paano nalang kung may girlfriend pala siya? He never mentioned but what if he does have one? What would you call someone like me? An intruder? A whore? A bitch to their relationship?

Lahat-lahat nalang ng pagsisisi naramdamam ko. Diring-diri ako sa aking sarili. I carefully unlocked myself from his grip. I stopped midway when I felt the soreness down there. But I shouldn't waste time. Ayokong magising siyang nandito pa ako. I have to atleast save the little dignity I have. I have to get out from this place bago paman siya magising.

I went to the room he pointed out last night, where he said my clothes were.  I had my panty back on and I dressed as quick as I could. When I had everything I owned back except for the big V that I lost to him, I slowly walked out of the door. And from this day, I am walking out from the life of the man who has my everything... Even my heart perhaps...

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"Lu!" Untag sa akin ni Penelope sa kabilang linya. I was on the phone with her for a few minutes already. Her call came in after I turned my phone on after charging. Buti nalang buhay pa, the perks of buying expensive phones, survivors. She was telling me of her plan of spending some time here sa Pinas for a vacation. Like mine and Steve's family nag migrate narin sina Penelope. And soon ay sina Marie naman but like me, gusto ring manatili ni Marie dito. Kasi sabi niya, she does't want me lonely. Sweet diba? But nobody knows how lonely I am right now. A big part of me is missing and I can't tell anyone about it. I sighed heavily at the though.

"Hoy Luisa Channel Garcia Rodriguez!" Kinompleto pa talaga nito ang pangalan ko kainis mas naalala ko tuloy ang taong iyon when I heard my second name. Naiisip ko tuloy kung gising naba siya at kung oo, hinanap ba niya ako? Is he feeling as empty as I am right now? Or maybe not, probably I'm just one of the many that he's fucked and he doesn't give a damn. Hindi naman kasi nababawasan ang pagkalalaki nila. Unfair naman! Bumungtong-hininga uli ako sa isiping iyon.

"Ano ba'ng problema mo at kanina kapa bumubuntong-hininga? Parang iyan lang ang sagot mo sa lahat ng updates ko sayo ah. Ano ba? May dinaramdam kaba? Naku! Hindi ka siguro inaalagaan ni Marie ano? Ito talagang si Maria Isabella Aragon kahit kailan! Siguro puro lalaki ang inaatupag noon no? Matawagan ko nga iyon mamaya, ay hindi facetime talaga ang gagawin ko with her mamaya para intense." Walang prenong litanya ni Penelope. Sanay narin naman ako sa kadaldalan niya kaya wa pansin ko nalang.

"Sige tawagan mo na ang isang iyon. Bye wifey, love you! Mwah!" I bid farewell.

"Kita mo itong babaeng ito. I can sense eh, may dinadala ka. Hindi ako sanay na ganyan katamly kang kausap eh. Well passive ka most of the time dahil sa ayaw mong pag-usapan si Stevy but you are extra passive today." Kahit kailan talaga itong si Penelope ang daming napapansin.

"Wala nga sabi. Siya sige, tawagan mo muna si Marie at magrereview pa ako. May exams ako mamaya sa dalawang major subs ko." Hindi ko na siya pinagsalita pa't pinatay ko na ang tawag. Dahil kung hindi ko ginawa iyon I am sure hindi ako tatantanan noon.

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Lance' Pov

Liwanag mula sa tirik na araw ang gumising sa akin. Without openning my eyes, I smiled at the memory of what happened earlier. Kinapa ko ang aking tabi hoping to cuddle someone I suddenly cherish in my heart.

Napabalikwas ako when I felt no one. Agad kong ginala ang aking mga mata sa paligid. I am still at the sala, naked but covered with a duvet. I smiled when I thought of Channel, she must have put it on me. Sweet and thoughtful she is, but wait...

"Chan?" I went to the guest room thinking she could be there preparing...

My hands dropped to my side when I found the room empty. I went to the bathroom, to the walk in closet but there was no trace of her.

I went to check the whole pad, I even asked the guards but nobody could tell. I looked for any note from her but to my dismay, I found nothing.

Nanlulumo akong umupo sa gilid ng aking kama.

"Where are you Channel? Where are you my sweet pea?" I mumbled.

I looked at my watch and saw that it's almost mid-day. I must go to the office already. I have meetings to attend and papers that need to sign. But... I felt like a part of me has been taken away.

I felt lifeless as I strode my way to the bath room. I've tried to think of reasons on why she left me without a trace. Have I violated her? I didn't force her, I ask for her permission and she obliged. Have I taken advantage of her innocence? No, I know I broke through but I did it gently. I did it slowly and even asking her from time to time making sure that it's okay. That we were on the same page...

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"What can you say about the proposed budget for the new office that we'll be building in BGC Mr. Ramirez?" Someone asked but I was too out my mind.

"Mr. Ramirez?" Another one called my attention...

Siniko ako ng aking katabing si Ruan. "Hey man! What's wrong with you? You're spacing out. Kanina kapa kinakausap ni Tito Nick." He interrupted me.

I am lost alright! I still can't believe I was left alone after what happened between us. After sharing a firy night, ganoon-ganoon lang iyon? I mean, I also did that to other women, I left them right after everything. But this time, the table has been turned around. I can't believe ako ang iniwan. Teka, is it that my pride is hit that I am feeling this awful?

I know that's not it. Iba ito eh, nasasaktan na naman ako. Akala ko I would never feel this pain again. At the same time, nangungulila ako sa kanya. How can this be even possible, don't tell me inlove na ako sa kay Channel? I just met her alright? I don't even know her complete name. Damn it! I so want to see her again. Hug her, kiss her and take her! God!

Tumikhim ulit si Tito Nick, a signal that I have to have my answer already.

"I'm sorry gents I was just preoccupied with something. I think it's okay however, I want to sit and study it closely with Dad. I trust your capability Tito." Baling ko kay Tito Nick, "But you know your brother well." referring to my father.

Ngumisi si Tito. "I know you'd say that. Kailan ba ipapasa ni kuya sa'yo ang full decision making responsibility ng company? I don't get it, its so obvious that you're cut for this business." Naiiling si Tito.

Ngumiti nalang ako bilang tugon. If I was in my focused state right now, I could have felt good about what he just said. But I'm in a limbo.

Natapos ang meeting ilang minuto ang nakaraan and I got exhausted. Nagkulong agad ako sa aking opisina.

I was scanning through the proposal that we've talked about over the meeting nang biglang bumukas ang pintuan ng aking opisina at iniluwa nito si Ruan.

"May hindi ka sinasabi sa'kin." Diri-diretso siyang umupo sa harapan ng aking mesa.

"Leave me alone freak!" I hissed. Wala akong gana.

"Whoa! What happened? Woke up at the wrong side of the bed?" Hindi parin ito tumitigil.

Ruan is my very good friend. We've been friends since highschool at hanggang ngayon magkasama parin kami. We are just so much alike. He's my confindante, bakla mang pakiggan but yes and I really am thankful to have him.

Bumuntong-hininga ako, I decided to tell him anyway. "I got ditched..."