If I See You Again

Epilogue

Lance' Pov

Ang sabi nila 'pag nahawakan mo na ang taong nakatakda para sa'yo, huwag na huwag mo na itong pakakawalan. Lagi mong papahalagahan, pakaaalagaan at huwag na huwag mong hayaang masaktan. Pero iba ang ginawa ko nang nahawakan ko na siya. Hinusgahan, hinayaang masaktan ng labis at higit sa lahat hinayaang makawala sa aking mga kamay ng mahaba-haba ring mga panahon. I've wasted so many years just because I failed on keeping her with me. Just because, I loosen the grip.

The night I met her, I was so rude that I didn't cared much about her wellbeing. Kung kumain naba siya noon, kung giniginaw ba siya dahil sobrang basang-basa siya sa ulan. Kung napilayan ba siya noong nagkabanggaan kami at kung okay lang ba sa kanyang sumama sa akin. No, I failed to take note of all those things. And worst, I even deflowered her without knowing who exactly she was. all I care was my need. I was a selfish jerk. Yes that was who I am that night.

Kaya naman nang magising akong nag-iisa, I've got devastated, frustration washed all over me. And realizations came gashing out of my head that it hurt so bad that day. So I thought of searching for her. But to my dismay, and added frustration, I didn't even get to asked for her complete name. Failed to ask for her number and I also didn't take a picture with her or even just her alone. Pathetic I was right? Yeah, and foolish, naturingan pa namang COO ng isa sa mga nangungunang korporasyon sa bansa. But I didn't used my brain enough. I was an asshole! And a big one at that.

But one day, binigyan ulit ako ng pagkakataong masilayan ang kanyang maamo at magandang mukha. That time, I made some amends. I introduced myself properly, we got introduced properly. I started pursuing her. Gave her flowers, took her out on fine dinings and even shared my thoughts and dreams with her. And my life has never had so much color lalo na noong nagkaroon ako ng lakas ng loob na aminin sa kanya ang tunay sa saloobin and she returned my feeling matched with hers. I was so happy... So happy that I never had imagined that I would be miserable as hell when I found her gone, vanish into thin air again for the second time.

I began to question God. Siya ba talaga ang itinakda Niya para sa akin? If she was, why does she kept on slipping away from my hold? I was so sure I had our lives tied tightly with our love for one another. But why? Why did a day came when I heard her say she never ever even loved me? Why had my heart got torn in to billions of pieces when she uttered right through my nose that I was just a passing fancy? Why did she had to professed her great love to a man she said she'd already forgotten because of me? Was I just a rebound then? I got so lost that I lost the drive to live. I got so lost that I even left my COO position and had my aged old man carry all the company burdens that should have had been passed on to me already. Sinubukan ko naman eh, nakipagrelasyon ako sa isa pang babae. Isang babae na katulad na katulad niya ang ibang mga katangian. But it didn't last long, it went down the drain. At iyon ay dahil, I just made her a rebound. Ginamit ko lang siya all those time. So I broke the relationship. Who am I kidding? Alam ko sa sarili ko na siya lang talaga at wala ng iba pang makakapagpasaya sa akin. So I decided to just let go of the words love and relationship.

But then again, tama nga talaga siguro ang sabi ng kanta ni Jim Brickman na pinamagatang 'Destiny'. Because yes, dumating na naman ang isang araw na nasilayan kong muli ang kanyang mukha. Matapos ang maraming taong nagdaan, wala paring ipinagbago. Mahal na mahal na mahal ko parin siya.

And now here I am gasping and holding my breathe as she's taken it away many, many times. I just can't take my eyes off her as I adoringly looked at her as she walks with so much grace, elegance and beauty in and out that it radiates the whole of her being.

"You're very beautiful that I think I've fallen for you deeply even more." I whispered when she finally reached me as I waited for her at the altar. Yes today is our wedding day. 5th of July 2018.