Forever Condemned ( A Ban x Reader Story)

Chapter 21 - Revelations

Ban woke up to the sound of his phone and rubbed his face while trying to recognize his surroundings. Then last night came back to him. He looked to his side to see that (Y/N) wasn't there and got up to look for her.

She was sitting in her desk chair only wearing a robe and looked trough the notes that had been on the flowers from yesterday. Her eyes glazed over with tears threatening to spill as she read them.

Rose coral - Desire
I know every inch of you. Every scar that you have carried on your body and in your heart and it would never and could never make me think or feel any less of you.

Red Tulip - Believe Me
I might be portrayed as childish and carefree. 
But I never joke when it comes to my feelings. We miss you. I miss you.

Orange Blossom - Eternal Love
My love for you is forever. It is endless and it is eternal. Literally.
So you can take as much time as you need. I got forever and I'll wait forever.

She covered her face with her hands as the tears were now falling freely down her face and she heard the footsteps that came quickly towards her.

"Hey.." Ban said gently wiping her tears.
"Please go away Ban I can't handle this right now" She choked out in between sobs.

That's when Ban realized what Meliodas had meant when he had told him to take it easy.
In his own mind it was clear that he and (Y/N) belonged together and that their feelings and chemistry were only normal. But in her mind she had just cheated on her boyfriend with someone she barely knows. Nevermind her confusion in all of this.
His greed subsided as the guilt kicked in.

"I'm.. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pressured you like this. I couldn't help myself. I've looked for you for so long and once I found you--"

"Just go.. please."

Feeling defeated Ban got up to leave and just as he was leaving he could her heart wrenching sobs from the livingroom. He stood there for a moment. Not wanting to leave her in this state but also knowing that staying would make it worse.

He put on his shoes and when he stood back up he hit his head on the hat shelf that knocked over her purse and all of its content spilled out. (Y/N)'s sobs quieted down at the commotion.

"I'm sorry! I'm leaving let me just pick these up" He called out.
Then he saw something he hadn't seen in years. The padlock and the key.

He thought he had lost it when they were sent away by her mother. Did she take it when he disappeared? Has she kept them all these years?

He held the chain that had both the key and lock attached to it and noticed a third attachment.
It was a small rolled up paper. Unable to control his curiosity he undid the string around it and rolled it out. He did this carefully as the paper was very old and eventually he could make out what it said. He noticed on the ink that every piece was written years apart.

"Your name is (Y/N).
You lost the love of your life.
His name was Ban.
He had red eyes and pale blue hair.
He was arrogant and irritating.
He could cook and was a strong fighter.
He annoyed you, made fun of you and
teased you every chance he could get.
But he also changed you.
He made you feel loved and he made you love.
There will never be anyone like him no matter
how long your immortality allows you to search."

He continued reading about details of her past he already knew that she had written to remind herself of who she was.

"You buried another child today.
You never got the chance to tell him.
It was a boy. You called him Bandit after Ban.
He died yesterday at the age of 73.
He was beautiful and loved the stories of his father.
He was just like him."

"Everything is gone.
The world is changing and this will be the last time you write.
Death will never grant your request"

"You weren't suppose to see that.." Ban whipped his head up to look at (Y/N) who was standing in the doorway holding her arm sheepishly.

"You knew who I was?" He said while standing up.

"From the moment I saw you.. But only in theory."

"But you still knew." He mumbled while walking over to her.

She refused to meet his eyes and they stood there for a moment before she broke the silence.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you. It's not like I remember you but I should at least have told you that I knew who you were and that I knew about me being immortal. I just, those notes broke my heart."

Ban nodded knowingly and pulled her into a hug. He wanted to be mad at her for not telling him. But knowing now that she had to go trough losing a child all over again broke his heart and cursed the goddesses for not giving the two of them a break. They had been criminals but he refused to believe that they had done something so evil to have faith despise them to this extent.

"I'm sorry you had to go trough it again."

She hugged him back. "You too.. "

He cupped her face and looked into her eyes.
This woman, the love of his life, had not only lost another child. But she had gone trough losing him and her friends only to go trough pregnancy, childbirth and raising it all on her own.

She leaned into his touch. "Don't blame yourself Ban. I know I don't remember much of it but I apparently survived. You're back and I am here.."

He looked at her surprised. "You mean?.."

She nodded. "Let's get to know each other again.. Let's take things slow and figure everything out. I think it's best I don't remember too much. But.. I want to give you..This "she motioned between them "a chance".

He grinned and leaned in for a kiss only to have her hand in the way.

"But first I need to speak to Ryu. Yes we were on a break but it didn't give me the right to sleep with you on the same day. If we're going to do this I want to make things right. Ok?"

Still having her hand over his lips he only nodded with a closed eyes smile.

"Good." she smiled and put on her coat. "The sooner the better."

"Should I come with you?" He asked while hugging her from behind.

"I'm guessing you wont take no for an answer but please stay out of the way. The last thing I want is a fight"

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(Y/N) walked up to Ryu at the photo shoot while Ban stood in the background on the phone with Meliodas. The whole thing went surprisingly easy as Ryu had suspected there was something going on. She apologized over and over but he laughed it off and said they were better of as friends and that as long as she would still help him out with clients, they were good.

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"-- Yeah so we both agreed that it's better if she doesn't remember."

"I think that's a good idea Ban. Who knows what else she went trough. It's been hundreds of years and I think all that information could break her mind." Meliodas said.

"Yeah exactly." Ban agreed.

"Oh by the way Ban, where are you now? I forgot to tell you"

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"(Y/N) meet my newest client" Ryu smiled while stepping aside for introductions.

"Nice to meet you" She smiled.

"Nice to see you again" The pink haired boy said while reaching for her hand.