What am I going to do?
I swipe the screen of my phone, and a new photo pops up. This one is of both me and my boyfriend Jin. Since my arm is longer, I'm the one taking the selfie. My hair is messed up, thanks to him, my eyes are squeezed shut, and my mouth is stretched into a wide smile.
My looks are no match for his. His hair is still perfect, and his eyes sparkle, and he's the most beautiful person I've ever seen. How he's my boyfriend, I don't know. He's so out of my league.
"Joonie!"
My head jerks up at my nickname, and I hold back the cringe that threatens to show. I smile instead. I stand up from the airport seat and start walking forward. Before I've taken five steps, a body launches itself at me, tackling me to the floor. Hands palm my neck as I'm kissed all over my face. I laugh and say, "Jin, slow down."
He sits up, pulling me with him, and engulfs me in a hug. "I'm sorry. I just missed you so much!"
I hug him back with a pain in my chest. "I missed you too, baby." I kiss his head.
He scrambles to his feet and yanks me with him. He loops his arm with mine as I grab one of my suitcases, and I grin when he grabs the other. "I don't ever want you to leave again."
I chuckle. "It was only two weeks."
"I know! But it was too long." He leans his head on my shoulder. "I really missed you."
I move my arm to rest around his shoulders. "I missed you too. How are the others?"
"A mess."
"Oh, so the same."
He laughs. "Basically." He quickens his pace and tugs on my arm, yearning me to go faster. "Come on! The kids are out in the car."
* * * * *
Jin parks the truck at the curb of the apartment building, and the others are at the door before I have a hand on my luggage. As I pull it from the tailgate, I mumble, "Thanks for the help."
A pair of lips peck my cheek. "I got it," Jin tells me while he grabs the smaller suitcase and heads toward the front doors. As I watch him go, my chest tightens in guilt, so much so that I can barely breathe.
It's painful, but I follow him.
The air temperature changes from scorching hot outside to cool inside as I walk through the doors. My dongsaengs are chatting nonsense about what had happened while I was gone as we ride the elevator. I hear something about Taehyung beating Jungkook's high score, and I realize that's the most exciting thing ever to him. "Hyung, come on!" Taehyung cries, pulling on my jacket to hurry me. "We want to hear everything."
As I'm dragged into the living room of Jin's apartment, I say, "Tae, I don't know. I'm pretty tired after a 15 hour flight."
Jin comes up behind Taehyung. "How about we all meet up for lunch tomorrow and talk about it then? It's getting late."
Hoseok nods. "Good idea, hyung." He embraces me and flashes a contagious smile. "Goodnight." He leans closer, lowering his voice so that only I can hear. "Take it easy on Jin-hyung tonight." He winks before leaving me speechless and blushing madly.
After many goodbyes, Jin and I were left alone in his apartment. I lock the door behind the others and turn to find him sitting on the couch, watching me. He pats the cushion beside him. "Come here, Joonie."
My throat tight, I do so. The second my butt hits the seat, his thick pair of lips are pressed to mine. I hesitate before returning it, my stomach doing somersaults. After a full minute, he pulls away. "Hey, I need to talk to you about something."
