The Struggles and Confessions of a Military Girlfriend.

Day 19

Friday, May 25th, 2018
Approximately 158 days to go
Today waking up is far too easy for me. Today I get to take my drivers test. Or well at least that's how my day was supposed to start. It never got to be like that. I was waiting waiting in anticipation to be able to take my drivers test and was I given that opportunity? No. All over some stupid BULLSHIT that doesn't even make any sense. Anyways the drive to long beach was slow and boring but in a sense it went by quickly. The day was made up of us just getting there and then starting the set up for Ambers party. I was eager to welcome the distraction. I was also excited to talk about him with others because lately talking about him seemed completely impossible. My mother had began to make my life an absolute hell. She made my happiness disappear in a matter of moments and in the end it was just putting me in a dark place where I shouldn't have been in. Gosh Amber she had grown up so much from the days of us living under the same roof. She had a fire in her eyes but yet she was still the same girl in so many other ways. Talking with her was always easy and it never mattered to either of us how much we spent not talking when we got back to talking it was as if we never stopped. She listened to my words and told me when I was wrong but also supported me and told me how wrong my mother was. It was nice to be able to talk about him with someone who had no hatred towards him. Lord knows me trying to have a conversation with my mother about him was like trying to lift the great wall of China. It just wasn't going to happen. My mother is a difficult woman who makes everyone's life an absolute living hell. Her obsession with trying to control everyone has driven her insane and one day she will realize that when its too late. When she has burned all her bridges with everyone. One day she will realize when it is too late exactly where her mistakes were made.

Days gone: 10