The Struggles and Confessions of a Military Girlfriend.

Day 28

Sunday, June 3rd, 2018
Approximately 149 days to go

Today was just a simple day. NOT!!!!! Oh my lord. I don't even know how to begin to let you know how today went! Baby if you are reading this then you already know. I hadn't been feeling well and so today as I went home after a weekend at my aunt's I decided it would be a great time to go to the store for something I hadn't seen in a while. I had to sneak off to go get it. Today I got a pregnancy test. The entire time I was on my way home it felt like someone had lit a fire underneath me. Holding the box in my hand as I took it to the bathroom as I arrived home felt like someone had sat on my chest and wouldn't get up. As I stared at the test before I had even taken it my anxiety was through the roof. My boyfriend was there on the phone with me the entire time. I took the first one and I waited. I paced in my bathroom until the lines showed up and right there. As I looked at the little test sitting on my counter. I felt my knees buckle. I looked at my boyfriend in the camera and began to cry. Right there on my counter on a test that could change my life was a faint little plus sign. I showed it to my boyfriend and he too began to cry. this was something huge that would change our lives forever. I was scared don't get me wrong but I was happy. I didn't know how to handle any of this. my mind was racing almost as much as my heart was. I was crying tears of joy. I wish he had been there so I could hug him and kiss him.  I have literally just sat here in shock and just overfilled with love and joy. I already loved him or her. I knew that he loved her or him already too. Seeing him so happy made this entire thing so worth it though I was scared to do it alone. I am now even more excited to see him come home. It seems almost crazy that this is actually happening. I don't know if I fully believe it and that might sound bad but maybe I'm just in denial. I'll retest later. 

Days gone: 19