Wednesday May 16th, 2018
Approximately 167 days to go
I woke up and for a second, I forgot. It was normal for just a second until it wasn't. Until I remembered. I got up and went to work and i wished the day had gone by faster but it hasn't. It went by so slow.
My mind had raced around him so much. My eyes spent so much time spilling tears that for a moment I had forgotten what it felt like to not cry. I missed him so much and i couldn't even talk to him I had to wait. Wait to hear anything. I waited all day to hear if he had landed in Japan. If he had made it safely. I wondered if he slept the whole time or if he had been stubborn and tried to stay up. I wondered had he listened to music or had he watched a movie.
I was waiting. I wanted to just know that he was safe and that he had made it. I wanted these things yet in reality the one thing I wanted most was to love him and hold him and have him in my arms. The struggle is literally fighting with my mind and heart and knowing that in all actual reality I had become a prisoner in my mind. The truth was that i had a hole in my heart that needed to be filled again and it wouldn't for 5 and a half months. I had began to think about all the things I wanted to do for him and yet I was unsure if I would be able to because I had no clue as to when he would come home. Which annoyed me so much but made my heart beat because I knew he was trying to surprise me and make me happy. I loved him and if waiting was what u had to do then so be it.
Always your love
Vanessa ~XOXO
Days gone: 2
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