The Struggles and Confessions of a Military Girlfriend.

Day 15

Monday May 21st, 2018
Approximately 162 days to go.
My lack of sleep had caught upto me and therefore made this the last day at my new job. My mind had become mush. I couldn't concentrate on much of anything. I was in and out of sleep throughout the entire day. If I was awake it was probably only long enough to eat and then it was back to sleep. I'm pretty sure the only time my eyelids were open for longer than 20 minutes was when I spoke to him.

     I guess you could say he was part of the reason for my constant lack of sleep but that was of my own choices. I mean he's special because when it comes too food, time, or sleep I dont give those up easily for anyone but I would for him. I'd give up any thing for him. That was how much he meant to me. My days were spent with me waiting for that moment where I would get to talk to him. Maybe that sounds silly out loud but this is the man I hope to spend the rest if my life with.

      I've spent a lot of time thinking. Mainly because I've been alone a lot lately but yea thinking. I think about everything that i face everyday. I think about patience. See I am a woman with A LOT of patience. I just think about how patient I have to be to wait. I have to wait for so long. I have to sit here and distract myself because if I don't I'll run circles in my mind for hours thinking about how much longer until he comes home and that's not healthy. Plus I doubt it would make him happy to see that I'm just sitting there driving myself crazy watching the time and thinking. So instead I play games or watch tv shows or movies. I focus on other things and i do my very best yo distract myself.

Days gone: 6