Will We Ever Be The Same?

Imagination

Lucy POV

I opened my eyes to Sasha shaking my body and saying my name over and over again.

"Are you okay? I came in the room and you were shaking and you're crying, again" She asked me as she wiped the tears from my face which I was oblivious to.

"Yeah. I'm fine. Where'd the other girls go and have you calmed down?"

"They're getting changed the now. And what do you mean have I calmed down?"

"You were shouting that I'm selfish and nearly hit me. Then you just broke down crying?"

"No I didn't. You're the one who is crying, did you have a bad dream or something?"

"Well I must have, has nobody been up here like none of the girls?"

"Nope," Sasha emphasised the 'p'.

"Why are you here anyway?" I sat up from my slouched place on the sofa and Sasha was sitting next to me.

"I was just coming up to see if you were here so you can take me home, soonish I need to sleep."

"Sash, it's five o'clock in the morning and we start back work at 11am, why are you not just staying here?" Usually we just all slept on set if our calls were close together, because there was no point in driving home then driving back only a couple of hours later.

"Because I want to go home. Are you not wanting to go home or something? Because I'll call mom or Maggie to come and get me if you're not going home." Sasha snarled as her face pinched up as if she are something sour.

"Okay, no need to be cheeky and you're not waking anybody up at this time to take you home. Of course I want to go home. I need my bed and I need to shower aswell." I ran my hands through my hair and rubbed the bridge of my nose then stood up and grabbed my bag off of the floor.

"Okay, let's go," Sasha stood up behind me then started to walk faster so she could et to the door first. God, she is a competitive person. She was a step ahead of me and we got to the door. She turned around and looked at me the way she looks at me when she has to tell me something, those big blue puppy eyes. "I know there is something wrong with you, and you're not going to tell any of us. They told me about the car and you crying, that's why I said you were crying again."

"Wait, you don't know even though they told you what they had heard?"

"They don't know either, all they heard was Ian saying stuff about lying to them and then the car stopped Ian said we'll go in five minutes then you just started crying. The phone fell and they then hung up cause they didn't want to hear what was wrong with you because you were crying so hard." I sighed a little too loud, but Sasha continued to speak. "They are all concerned about you and so am I. But I'm not going to push for you to tell me or them. We are all here for you and that's not gonna change, okay? No matter what. I may be your younger sister but that doesn't mean you can't talk to me like you talk to Maggie or mom or whoever."

"Can we not talk about this right now, please. I just can't do-" I tried to push by her but she stopped me and put her hands on my shoulders holding me still in front of her.

"I'm not saying tell me, I'm just saying we're here for you, Goose." She put her arm around my neck and rubbed my upper arm as we walked by Ian's dressing room he walked out the door.

"Just in time," Ian, Sasha and I walked out to the car and drove home.

Once we had dropped Sasha off and got in the house I let out a big sigh and started to walk up the stairs. Once I got to the bedroom I got changed into one of Ian's shirts and got into bed and Ian just stripped down to his boxers then joined me. Ian pulled me close to his body so his bare chest was against my back and our legs were against each other's. He fell asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow but I couldn't sleep. I looked at the clock an it read 05:56. We've to be up in four hours for work again. I tried closing my eyes to go to sleep but every time I did I just kept seeing Sasha and hearing her say "you selfish bitch". It echoed in my head.

My eyes shoot opened and my head is covered in a cold sweat. Yuck. My body was still tightly against Ian's with his arms wrapped around my stomach. These bad dreams are getting out of control. I tried to get comfy again so I could try to get some sleep before going to set in two hours. Great. Ian started to move his legs about as if he was waking up. Little did I know he was already awake.

"What's wrong babe?" He asked in a raspy morning voice.

"I'm sorry if I woke you up. I just had another bad dream, that's all."

"You never have bad dreams, what are they about?"

"Nothing it doesn't matter. Let's just go back to sleep." I brushed Ian's question off and pretended to try to go back to sleep but I could feel Ian's eyes on me.

"It is obviously something Lucy if your waking up at quarter to eight in the morning." I turned around so I was face-to-face with Ian.

I sighed then started to explain these bad dreams. "It's just of me telling the girls about the baby and them reacting bad. Especially Sasha, she like comes at me and starts shouting in my face then Troian pulls her back. Then five minutes later Ashley asks Sasha if she is okay and she just bursts into tears."

"Who, Sasha bursts into tears?"

"Yeah, then she just keeps saying over and over 'I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry',"

"Is she saying that because of-" Ian looked at me with puppy dog eyes, just like Sasha did earlier on.

I cut Ian off because I can't bare to hear him finish the question he is about to ask me. "Mhmm. Do you think she'll react like that when we tell her? Because I don't think I can tell her if she will react like that. You know? It just hurts to see her hurting."

"I know, I know. Come here." He pulled my body close to his and I buried my head in the crook of his neck. "I don't think she'll react like that at all, maybe you're just over thinking about it because of the circumstances of this situation for the both of you. Once we tell her and the rest of the cast they will all be over the moon. Remember when Tammin announced she was having a baby? We were all over the moon."

"But Sasha wasn't in the room and I told her when I went to see her later that day, just incase anything happened."

"Well, do you want to tell Sasha in front of everybody else or with your mom and Maggie or individually?"

"Well why don't we wait til our next scan then we can get another picture and show them all. You can show the boys and I'll show the girls."

"That's a good idea, when is the next scan for little baby Harding?" Ian asked as he ran his hands down my sides and started to rub my stomach.

"In 3 weeks. Can you believe we're having a baby? We actually made a baby!"

"I'm still overwhelmed, but I'm so happy for us. We're going to be the perfect little family ever. The Hardings" Ian smiled against my lips as he kissed me lightly.

"I'll be the odd one out!" I faked a pout while looking up at Ian.

"Why? Because the baby is going to be a boy?" Ian chuckled.

"No, because both of you will be Hardings and I'll still be a Hale."

"We'll soon see about that. Won't we?"

What is he up to? "Will we?" I asked with some question in my voice.

"Oh, we will. We should get some sleep. I need my little footballer in there and his beautiful mommy to get as much sleep as possible."

"Ian! What if it's a girl?!"

"Then she'll be gorgeous like her mom. Night Goose, love you and our little baby with all my heart."

Wow, he is going to be the best dad in the world. "We love you too." I kissed Ian's cheek and snuggled into his chest as he turned onto his back and put his arm around the back of my neck. I draped one of my arms over his body and he held my hand with his free hand and our legs intertwined. We both slipped into deep slumbers as soon as our eyes closed.

A/N - What do you think is going on with Sasha and Lucy?

and what do you think is going on with Ian, what is he planning?

Leave your answers in the review bit. Thanks for reading.