Love At First Sight// S.M.

Chapter 19

Shawn's POV

I didn't even realize I had fallen asleep until I felt my body being shaken and my name being whispered into my ear.

"Shawn?" I heard again as I opened my eyes slowly lifting my head.

"Yeah?" I asked rubbing my eyes.

"You fell asleep on me." She giggled.

"Oh." I laughed. "Sorry." I pushed myself off of her as I sat down rubbing both my eyes. "What time is it?" I asked looking over at her.

"About 7ish." She said looking down at her phone. "Where's your bathroom?" She asked standing up as she fixed my sweater that she was wearing.

"Around the corner over there, you can't miss it." I said pointing to the hallway.

I watched her walk over as she turned the corner, I fixed my member down there considering he was getting a bit excited and now wasn't the time.

I got up after it calmed down as I walked over to the kitchen that was attached to the living room grabbing some things from the fridge. She came out walking over to me as she leaned down on the counter watching me.

"Take a picture, it'll last longer." I smirked as she laughed. "Are you hungry?" I asked her.

"Starving." She groaned. "Need help?" She asked coming around the counter.

"If you want." I smiled.

"I want." She smiled.

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"It's getting late, I should probably head home." She looked over at me.

"You don't want to stay?" I asked frowning.

"I would but Madison and I had plans tomorrow morning and I don't have any clothes or nothing." She chuckled.

"Well maybe next time you should bring your things." I teased her as I began poking her ribs.

"Shawn." She whined pushing my hands away laughing.

"Does tomorrow sound good for you?" I asked taking her hands in mine.

"Tomorrow sounds good." She chuckled.

She got up pulling me with her as I looked down at her height with a smirk on my face. I was much taller than her, her head was the height of my chest. Tall enough for me to just rest my chin on.

"You gonna walk me to the door like a gentleman?" She asked smirking up at me.

"I'll do even better and walk you down to your car." I smiled.

She rolled her eyes laughing as she began to walk off towards the front door putting her shoes and jacket on. I slid some nike slides on as I opened the front door for her closing it behind us.

She jogged to the elevator pressing the buttons as I jogged behind her.

"Trying to run away from me?" I joked hugging her from behind as she giggled.

"Trying but clearly not succeeding" She smiled looking up at me. I kissed the tip of her nose as she looked back down probably blushing.

We rode down the elevator in silence as I walked her to her car, it was a bit cold in the parking garage.

"I'll see you tomorrow." She turned around as she opened her car door up.

Grabbing her waist, I pushed my lips against hers as her back hit the car. Our lips moved in sync as her hands roamed my arms.

"See ya tomorrow." I smiled giving her one last peck before walking off.

Amanda's POV

"My god Mads, he was so adorable." I gushed as we had been driving to my appointment.

"He sounds like a keeper." She smiled. "As long as he's making you happy, that's all that matters to me."

"He is, I'm just so happy." I smiled. "We don't really have a title yet but he treats me so well, better than my pasts and he makes me feel like a princess." I blushed.

"You should be treated like a queen, darling." She joked.

"No I like being his little princess. Queens are too demanding." I said causing her to laugh. We pulled up to the office as I shut the car off walking inside with Mads.

"Here to see Dr. Loughlin?" The secretary asked remembering me from my past appointments.

"Yup." I nodded smiling her way.

"Have a seat, she'll come get you in a couple minutes." She smiled. I thanked her as both Madison and I sat down in the waiting room.

"Have you told Shawn about this yet?" She asked circling her finger around the room.

"Not yet." I said looking down in my lap.

"Do you plan on it?" She asked.

"Yeah, probably." I shrugged. "Maybe soon."

"You can't keep lying to him." She sighed.

"I'm not lying to him, just not telling him the truth." I said looking over at her.

"Miss. Rose?" I heard my name being called as I looked over.

Madison and I got up following Dr. Loughlin down some halls before going into a room. She closed the door slowly before making her way over to her chair.

"So how was your trip?" She asked smiling.

"It was good." I nodded. "I met a guy actually."

"Tell me about him." She smiled taking out her notebook.

I didn't want Shawn knowing just yet about my bulimic problems. I go to therapy every Thursday and have been for the past couple months to help with it. I was on a binging problem last year and Mads got worried about me and told my mom.

My mom insisted on getting me help and I refused it for the longest time but one day I passed out and woke up in a hospital. The doctors had injected me with a bunch of fluids and I was in there for almost a month until I was "better".

Since then my mom has paid for me to come and talk it out with a professional. I've been better for a while but I feel like I just want someone to talk to other than Mads and my mom.

"So I'll see you next Thursday?" She smiled as I nodded her way.

"Yes, thank you." We both walked out of her office as we got into my car outside.

"You should bring Shawn with you next week." Madison spoke up.

"That's too soon, plus he probably has better things to do." I shrugged.

"Amanda, stop." She scolded. "I know you hate letting guys in, I've known you since you were 6 and yes in the past your boyfriends have treated you like shit but Shawn's different. He seems like a genuine person who actually cares and I know he would be so gentle with you after knowing about this." She sighed.

"I don't want him to look at me differently just because I had an eating disorder. I'm cured and I'm feeling better about myself. I don't want someone who's going to watch my every move and have to worry about me." I argued back.

"Do not get snappy with me, sis." She said as I rolled my eyes. "You know Shawn's different, he won't treat you different."

"You don't know that." I said annoyed. "I don't want anyone's pity." I hated when people pity me. Yeah I had issues back then but I'm not like that anymore and I didn't want him thinking of me as some insecure girl. I'm a whole new person.

"I'll drop it. If you don't want to tell him that's on you. It's fine." She smiled.

"I'll tell him, ok? I just don't want him to see me as my old self." I said.

"I know." She rubbed my arm giving me a soft smile as I pulled into her driveway.

The only people who knew about this were my mom, Madison and my eating disorder coach. I want to tell Shawn, I know he's not like my past boyfriends. He's special, he's perfect.

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I'm going to be in Toronto in 5 days (29th) and I cannot wait. Also, Shawn is performing in my city next Saturday, like July 7th and I'm pretty excited for that.