Love At First Sight// S.M.

Chapter 31

A couple days had gone by and I haven't heard from Shawn today or all of yesterday. I haven't texted him either, he's probably busy with the MET gala and all so I should just stop assuming.

I was in the middle of watching a movie with my mom and little brother when I got a text from Shawn.

"Hey so I'm sorry for not texting or calling for the past 2 days but I've been trying to figure out a way to tell you this. Tommy Hilfiger wants Hailey and I to walk the MET carpet together. I really don't want you getting upset at this and completely shutting me out for it because if it was up to me I wouldn't do it, for you. I already signed with Tommy and so did she. I hope you're not mad and I'll explain it more tonight after the event." I was upset but we're not together. It's just business though.

"Yeah...sure." I locked my phone letting out a tiny sigh as I couldn't focus on the movie after that text. Everyone is going to definitely think they're dating after tonight.

I went onto Instagram seeing some fan accounts on my recommended page posting about "rumours" of them walking together. I wish it was just a rumour.

"I'm gonna head to my room." I smiled looking over at my mom as the movie ended.

"Ok sweety." She said as I got up heading upstairs. It was just starting to get dark out. I haven't gone onto Instagram for the past hour because I know the second I open it I'm going to see pictures of them everywhere and I honestly don't know if I can handle that.

I laid in bed just blasting music into my ears until my music was interrupted by a phone call. It was him. Hesitating, I watched it ring but eventually answered.

"Hey." I said.

"Hey, did I wake you?" He asked.

"No, I was just listening to music." I sat up leaning against my headboard.

"So about tonigh-" he was about to explain but I cut him off.

"Shawn you have nothing to explain. We're not together, we haven't spoken in a month you don't owe me an explanation of why you and her went together." I said annoyed.

"Yes I do because I want to keep this friendship. I want you in my life and I don't want to do anything that will jeopardize that." He said.

"Ok but we're just friends." I reminded him. "You can date and do whoever you want." I heard him sigh on the other end because he knew I was right.

"I just don't want you to be mad at me." He said in a low tone.

"I'm not mad. Is that what you want to hear?" I asked.

"Yes but you sure sound mad." He said.

"Well I'm not. Just annoyed and frustrated and I don't know what the fuck I want, I don't know what the fuck to think or do, I'm just a whole ass mess right now because my head is fighting two different thoughts and I don't know what the fuck to do or which thought to listen to." I yelled getting it all out.

"Let me come to you." He said.

"What?" I asked confused.

"I'm in New York. It's only an hr plane ride. I can be there tonight." He said.

"Shawn-"

"I'll be there soon." Before I could even argue, the phone disconnected as I let out a sigh. But I wasn't sure if it was a sigh of relief or a sigh from frustration. Seeing him is what I wanted, right? But I can't give in to him.

I hopped into the shower quickly before heading back to my bed and putting on a baggy tshirt and some underwear and getting under my sheets. I put on some music blasting it through my ears as I closed my eyes just listening.