My Past Memories ✔️ (Book 1)

Chapter 26

Amelia

Inhale, Exhale. These are the words running through my mind, as I rack my brain for something to say as Sophia looks expectantly at me. The truth is I don't want to tell her what I am going through each and every second. I don't want her to look at me differently and I don't want her to treat me like I am fragile. I want to stand on my own two feet and conquer all my fears that are living inside of me.

"You don't have to tell me, if you don't want to", she said softly, touching my arm in assurance.

Sucking in a sharp breath, I turned my head towards her. I didn't know what urged me to tell her, but I trusted her with everything in me. I knew she wouldn't look at me or treat me differently, instead she would see me as Amelia.

"I want to tell you", my voice came out in a whisper.

Nodding her head in understanding, she waited expectantly as she looked at me. I honestly didn't know where to begin. If I tell her, would she be disgusted? Would she laugh at me like all the others? Or would she run away, seeing how weak I am? These thoughts running through my head, they scared me to no end. But Sophia wasn't that kind of a person.

"T-the baby is, was mine", I felt my throat closing up, as new set of tears blinded my eyes, but I blinked them back not letting them win.

"Was?", she questioned confusedly.

Gulping, I continued "H-he was murdered".

Gasping, she froze in her seat not blinking. But after a moment, she blinked her eyes multiple times and covered her mouth with her hands. Giving her a small smile, I rubbed her arms soothingly.

"I should be comforting you", she choked out.

"It's ok, I know this piece of information is shocking", I continued to rub her arms.

"Who murdered him?". Her hands flew to her neck and she rubbed them nervously.

"H-his own father", I flinched as she took a sharp breath.

"What the fuck? He murdered his own child?", she was furious now.

"Please calm down, I will explain everything", I murmured blinking the tears away.

After calming down a little, her head turned towards me and in instant I was engulfed by her warm smell, as she hugged me tightly.

"I- I honestly don't know what to say", she mumbled in my ear.

The tears I've been holding back, freely flowed down my cheeks. I struggled with each breath I took. It became painful and my breath turned to soft pants. I couldn't hear or feel anything, only the ringing sound in my ears. A sob racked through me as my arms made there way around her waist, seeking her comfort.

"Take deep breaths, Amelia". I heard her say, after my ears stopped ringing.

Doing as she instructed, I kept taking deep breaths until it was back to normal, the tears were still running as I pulled away from Sophia. Looking at her, I was shocked to see tears on her face also.

"I was twenty- two, when my father forced me to be engaged to one of his men. At first I did everything I could to prevent it, but he tortured me until I gave in. When I first saw him, I was speechless, he seemed like a guy who would treat you like you deserve, I put my trust in him, I didn't believe it when my friends told me he looked dangerous, but after one night, he forced himself on me".

"After that, he kept breaking me doing the things he loved. He said he owned me and my body, he would let his guards use me if I disrespected him. I was so disgusted with myself that I wouldn't even look at a mirror anymore. After a few months, I kept throwing up, one of the maids made me took a test. When the results came back. It felt like, I was dying."

"I was scared for the baby growing inside of me. I was scared of how he would react. I planned not to tell him, but somehow he found out. Strangely, he acted calm, he treated me like a normal person, but I should've knew something was suspicious. When the baby was born, I was so happy, but also scared. I didn't want to my baby to turn out like him. After I gave birth, the door was burst open and he walked through the door. Taking a picture of my baby, he gave it to me and told me to cherish it."

"I didn't know what his words meant, until the baby was snatched away from my hands. I begged and pleaded him but he didn't listen as he took out his gun and shot my baby in front of my eyes." I took a deep breath and looked towards Sophia, as I finished.

Sitting still, she had new set of tears on her face. She muffled her cry with her hand as she sobbed uncontrollably. I scooted closer to her and laid her head on my chest. Trying to comfort her, I tried to talk to her with soothing words, keeping my own tears at bay. I had to be strong for myself and for my baby.

After a few moments, she slowly lifted her head. "No one should go through those horrible things. The thing is Amelia, even though you were tortured, you came stronger than you think. You didn't let this world beat you down, instead you owned it and I am so happy that you escaped from him".

Her words shocked me to the core, no one had called me strong, instead they thought I was a whore, that my body should be used whenever and they thought I was weak. But hearing someone call me strong, it gave me a sense of pride in myself. It made me feel like maybe, I could face him without feeling any fear or anything like that.

"Thank you", I said sincerely.

Arms sneaking around my waist, she hugged me tightly again. I basked in her warm fragrance and immediately felt safe. Even though I've known her for about a month, she became an important person in my life, along with Sebastian and Lilly.

Pulling away, she gave me a warm smile and stood to her feet. Offering a hand, she pulled me up. Before one of us could utter another word, the door slowly clicked open.

"What's going on in here?". The person questioned.
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