So the purpose of this authors note is to explain why I don't always update so I don't have to warn you guys ahead of time when I won't be updating. It's supposed to make it easier but it will probably just end up being a stupid thing nobody cared about. Anyway, let's get to the point.
I've struggled with depression and anxiety for over a year and a half now. I'm not on any medication or anything for it because my mom doesn't believe I am depressed or anxious, so I'm not really getting any help with it. For a while it left and went into the shadows, but it's slowly coming back. My depression causes me to loose interest in things I would otherwise love doing, such as writing, and make me bored. This is why I don't update.
I won't update my book if I am bored by the idea of writing or I am too busy. I'm usually not bored of writing, but when I have a bad day with my mental issues, it blocks my creativity and I can't focus on one task. That's why I don't write.
Another thing has to do with my anxiety. If I see views dropping or not going as high as I want to, I won't worry too much about updating. With my imagines book, it went from 50 reads to 500 reads in just a day. So that book has more parts. My first installment in the WICKED Love series had a slow amount of reads at first, but then they grew to now what is over 4 thousand and growing. My second book however, is not doing as well. It's only received around 600-800 reads in the few months it's been up, which isn't bad, but not good either.
What I'm trying to say is that when I see something getting less views I panic and think that I did something wrong or that people don't like it. I stop caring as much because other people seem to not care. But then views boost and I have more initiative. It's wierd really.
So anyway, I hope that explains a bit of why I do what I do. Thanks for listening if you did.
Bye.
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