My Answer To Life: OC X Akihiko Sanada P3 Fanfic

Chapter 25

Ken flinched when he saw him entered the building and head straight to the third floor where Akihiko is waiting with the others.

     "Shinji! "Akihiko couldn't help but to feel glad to see him. Everyone else too seems visibly relaxed a bit. They held back all questions, Kiera takes main priority.

     "Wait here, I'll do what I can. "He said to them before he gave a soft knock on her door. He didn't get a respond.

     "Kiera, it's me. I'm coming in alright? "Shinji asked in a soft gentle voice before he opened the door into the dark room. He turned and made eye contact with Akihiko, they both nods before he entered alone while the others waited outside.

It's dark inside yet he can still make out a person in bed. With a sigh, he walked towards the bed and switched on the lamp on the night stand. Kiera had her back facing him, her hands squeezed at the bed sheets, her pillow is wet, he can tell that she has been crying. He feels a bit hurt when he noticed a container near her hand, it's something similar to people who had asma used.

      "....... The others are worry about you. "He turned away from her as he saw down on her bed with their backs facing each other.

     "......... I know....... "She replied with a soft broken voice.

     "Then, why are you still here? "

     "They want the cheerful Kiera......... I'm not. "She squeezed onto the sheets more.

      "........ I heard from Aki." He told her.

      "If not........you wouldn't be here. "

      "Yeah, I guess you're right. "An awkward silence strikes.

      "........ Shinji....... I'm so sorry. "He flinched when he heard that. He knows where she's going on this.

     "It's not your fault! "He quickly stopped her.

     "Because that I exist......... I tore your family apart, I turned you into a orphan........ I'm a disgrace of your name. "She starts to sob again. He froze there for a while, then he pulled her up from the bed and held her tightly in his arms.

      "For the millionth time, it's not your fault, it never has been. My family is falling apart with or without you, you didn't caused it. "He reassured her yet she denied the fact.

      "You're just saying that to make me feel better! Someone like me should never even existed! "She yelled at him.

      "Shut up and think about me for once you idiot! You're all I left! "She flinched when he yelled back.

      "So what if you're a bastard child?! So what you're called dirty?! So what you're told that you should never exist?! You're not what they say you are, and you know that!.......... When I first met you........ I was questioning who is this pretty girl right in front of my eyes. And I don't believe the adults when they tried to explain to me what you are........ You're just a girl who's hurt and needed some love. "She was quiet for a while, then she started sobbing in his arms. He stayed there, rocking her back and fort.

      "None of us cared who you are in the past, what matters to us is who you are right now. If it wasn't for you, I'm not who I am now, because of that....... I glad that you existed, I glad that you're alive, I glad that I met you. That's already more than I deserve. "He gave her a reassuring smile as he rubbed her back to calm her down.

     "......... You really mean it? "She questioned.

     "You know I do....... I don't care who you work with, I don't care who you're born as, I don't care how many times you'll change your name, I don't even care that you acted your whole personality just to fit in........ You're all I had and I can't bear to see you like this........ None of us do. "Shinji said as he glance at the door. Kiera was quiet as he stared at her lovingly, then he reached into his pocket and took out a broken leather watch. He stared at it for a while before he tied it around her wrist.

      "Shinji? Isn't that...... "Kiera was shocked to see that.

     "Yes, the watch that you broke when that man gave it to me. The glass it scratched a bit and the battery is probably going to die soon. But....... I want you to have this as a reminder that you're precious to me, no matter how broken you are. "

     ".......... You always know how to drive me away from misery and despair. "She said softly with a faint smile on her face as she gently traced along the watch on her wrist. Her mood lightens up a bit.

      "Anything for you. "He chuckles softly. She loves it when he dropped the tough act. Even so, she was still hesitant about facing her friend after they have learnt that. What do they think of her? How would they react? How is she going to face them?

      "Just take it nice and slow now. No one blames you if you didn't turn back into the girl they know. But........I guess if you turn back too fast, they'll probably suspect it. "Shinjirou chuckles as he felt that he had read her mind. She blushed out of embarrassment yet she didn't say or do anything. She was tired and fatigue. Nightmares is all she sees whenever she close her eyes, once she woke up, she has to swallow her pills to contain the rampaging persona inside her. Even so, she finally managed to notice what triggers her to take the pills......... Her own depression. She finally noticed what's the difference when she didn't have to take the pills.

She couldn't help but to feel sorry for herself. Even though she had found a possible solution for it, there's still no doubt that she's going to die. She was born a depressed girl, she can't stop herself from killing herself. This is her life, she accepted it.

      "Shinji......... "She called his name, she had a request for him.

      "Yes? "

     "Can you.......rock me to bed?....... Please? "She questioned hesitantly. He paused there for a while, it has been a very long time since she requested something like that. Usually he would just brush it away saying that she's too old for it. But, he noticed that she was tired and she really seems to need it. He couldn't say no, not after what happened to her yesterday.

He didn't say a single word, he just pulled her closer to him until she's completely laying on his chest. Having her to closer her eyes as he rocked her body back and fort, humming her lullaby softly. His hand on her back, patting it gently like how a mother shushes her child to bed. She couldn't but to smile at the warm feeling in her heart, forgetting all her suffers temporary as her consciousness drifts away.

He continued for another half an hour before he's sure that she's out cold. He laid her back down on the bed gently and covered her body with her blanket. He stared at her for a while, gently brushing away the hair on her face and paused a while when he saw the beautiful few strands of brown hair like his. A faint smile appeared on his face as he tucked the brown hair back into her purple ones. He watched over her lovingly for the next couple of minutes before he finally decides it's time to go.

      "Shinji! "He was surprised that everyone is still there when he opened the door. He put up his tough act again and closed the door gently behind him.

      "How is she? "Akihiko questioned.

     "Fell asleep, but she calmed down a bit. Just give her some time and support, she'll be alright. "Shinjirou answers before he turns and leave.

      "Aragaki........ Thank you. "Mitsuru thanked him.

      "........ Whatever. "He said as he continues to walk out of the building. He glance towards Ken who's too staring at him when he walked pass the lounge. They didn't say a word yet there's a suffocating atmosphere around them. Shinjirou broke that atmosphere by continue walking until he exits the building, leaving Ken there to glare at him.